.. have u ever doubt tat?..

good que sebas, lolx,
do i ever doubt tat i won be marry to any one,
won hav children, won havin life like fairy tales "happily ever after"..

erm.. actually i neva think of tat b4,
cos it s like u knew tat god prepares everything..

but now come to think of it,
mayb it won be like the way how i want it to be,
mayb it full of misery, sadness, or even loneliness,
mayb it s full of suprises,
we never know rite?

i always dreamt tat i will be having my own career,
livin in a beautiful big house,
driving my fav volkswagen new beetle,
imagining myself wearing smart suit walking into a big building..
lolx.


Take no thought for your life,
what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on.
The life is more than meat,
and the body is more than raiment.
Consider the ravens:
for they neither sow nor reap;
which neither have storehouse nor barn;
and God feedeth them:
how much more are ye better than the fowls?
And which of you with taking thought can add to his stature one cubit?
If ye then be not able to do that thing which is least,
why take ye thought for the rest?
Consider the lilies how they grow:
they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you,
that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field,
and to morrow is cast into the oven;
how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?
And seek not ye what ye shall eat,
or what ye shall drink,
neither be ye of doubtful mind.
For all these things do the nations of the world seek after:
and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things.

yea n i believe He knows wat i need,
so though sometimes i am in need,
worry bout my future,
but i know God prepares.
rite? lolx.
so i can continue enjoy my life now. lolx

..long way to go..

yea it s a nice song..
ey wad la, m not saying the song 'long way to go' by cassie kie?
m sayin bout my life lah!

m not talking within the possibility if got any accident happen to me,
u noe, no one can predict future rite?
so m not suprise if i kena accident the next minute..
"CHOI".. touchwood sial..

as i were saying,
i still hav a long way to go..
aft my bday, i ll be like 19 years old..
tat means i ll be 20 years old nex year..
soon, i ll get my job, career, get marry, hav child, be grandmum soon..
wow..
m thinkin too far rite? lolx

yea m thinking too far..

actually la, i din wana blog bout tis one.
jus tat i dono wat to put for the title,
the song came into my mind,
n i crap..lolx

jus too boring since the skul is starting soon..
n i reli fel very sien with mmu edu system,
so fast term break n so fas it ends
sienz

[to 188: thx for viewing my bloggie,
yea i ll be moving to cyberjaya aft i fin dis semester,
hope u are doin fine in sg,
i ll look for u wen i hav holidays kie?]

change skin!!

finally i get sick of "blogger-provide" blog skin,
it s kinda boring rite? yea i feel so too..
so i determined to find frm blogskin.com,
i like this one, kinda plain, but i like it..

since when everyone stop blogging?
i m not sure is it bcos i view ppl's blog too frequent,
or is it bcos no ppl wana update their bloggie?
n everytime i open ppl's blog,
stil d same last post..
[except ada's one la.. lolz]
can ppl pls update their bloggie?
or else i ll be damn borin reading d same thing again n again n again n again..
n again n again n again n again...~~
[quote from edwin tsien : the echo still there.]

quote this frm daniel ooi.. [daniel ooi = charlie chaplin/cinderella]

charlie chaplin/cinderella to »¤¨°Y¦nL¦nG°¨¤«
i wanna woo jasmine

though he din say s which jasmine,
but definitely is jasmine ng,
he said that she s pretty cute now..
n m helpin him to advertise now..
[to jas ng: he s serious u noe.lolz]
lolz.. but she s not available anymore la dude..
so give up la..

life is not boring,
but it is boring when u hav NOTHING to do..
u noe wat i mean rite?
so, kesian me, come chat wif me pls!

..bac in melaka again~..

onli get to spend one week in jb, such a waste. although i spend most of my time at home, pigging, n doin nothing.. but i reli miss home.. cos der is wer i belong rite? reach melaka yest noon wif wingee, clean the house, den aft a while, wg they al wen to UM trip, [i dono wat the heck is it..].. so im al alone at home.. but u noe, m kinda of enjoy.. not enjoy la.. i ve got used to it.. i dono y, i prefer the bed here, let me get into sleep faster.. compare wif the bed in jb, i usually hav to use more than a hour lyin on bed in jb, den onli i get to fall asleep..

i read newspaper yest.. there's a sentence which attracted my attention. 'the scare is still there, just tat it shudnt be pain anymore..'.. yea, from my point of view, once it s wounded, it ll definitely left a scar there, u can ignore it, pretend it wasnt der, but one day,u gonna found urself a scar there.. but this sentence lets me come to a sense that, yes, there ll be a scar there, but it shudnt be pain anymore.. cos it s jus a scar.. well.. true, somehow..

i m kinda of hate to be here again, i mean back in melaka again, cos it means that my school starting soon, and that means it ll be my last trimester to be in melaka, n it means tat i m gonna leave my fella frens and move out to cyberjaya.. sometimes i reli shocked that how come time pass SO FAST??! [ed: guang ying jie jie! can don so fas?] ..one semester cud be reli fas, if u noe wat i mean.. reli dono what kind of life it ll be wen i move to cyber..im gonna miss my church frens and the food here..

..OMG..

1. i was informed tat i hav to be in MMU CLC concurse on thursday morning.
2. I have one day left in jb.
3. THE RESULT IS OUT!
4. Today no lok-lok to eat.

OMG..

d first thing i do dis morning is -- receive call frm ada foo.. OMG, dono wat the hell is wrong wif msia postmen, all letter din received by the uni.. den dat mins she has to appeal again for mel u, n monash.. kesian her rite.. but i was half aslep so din talk much..

den i wen out wif baoli.. makan kimgary [AGAIN??!!].. shopping.. den suddenly i got a sms frm my dearest CLS group leader.. remind me to go bac on thursday morning for a meeting.. nono.. workshop thingy.. den cos las time i din go meeting.. so i din get the funding form, which require every committee to raise fund minimum RM50.. den i din get the form.. so i ask my group leader how..
me: ey i din get the form den how ar?
HE: erm, u donate loh.. hahah
yea funny rite? i hav to donate RM50.. -_-
n i hav to go bac melaka on wed.. OMG.. dat means 2 days left in jb.. no no.. one day left.. cos left in the morning.. SHIT ..

n den got a sms frm wk, tellin me d result is OUT.. i heard tat it can be checked frm the "leave of absence" there, but i think it s not the REAL result.. den okie loh, i check again, frm the "achievement".. same wif the result i get in "leave of absence".. exactly d same wif the result i get las time.. actually i reli expect more than tat.. cos i tot i did quite enuf for my calculus n fz.. but i think is my eng la.. nvm.. dat s not so shitty..

N i got another sms frm meiqiang.. today supposedly i ll meet meiqiang tonight, he gonna bring me makan loklok at permas, heard tat it s super duper nice.. but hor, he said cos today it din open.. so.. cancel.. [wen ll be d nex time i makan loklok wif him? sighz.]

i promis my ex-colleague to go watch movie on wed, but i ll b in melaka dat time.. i promis ky i ll go find him but seems like not much time left, i wana find 188 for movie, i wana meet alot ppl leh~ in d end, my 3 weeks holiday jus end up like dat..

..hahah~nice video..

u noe i reli like baby laughter.. so cute.. so naive.. u ll cant help laughin together wen u see baby laughs..

here s a nice video i got frm youtube.. the best 10 videos of 2006..




cute rite? lolz

another cute video.. baby wana slep n wana eat oso.>~ greedy rite?
but he s reli cute..lolz.. farni la..

..finally went out..

finally get to meet frens yesterday.. though i was like draggin my whole body to walk out of my house.. but yea stil happy dat i did tat.. wen bac to skul (ssi) yest.. met yeap teik dey al.. stil cant accept the fact that they nid to wear yellowish pants and all that.. met my teachers.. pn lee n pn yang.. yep dey stil rmb me but.. "ohya, i rmb dis gal, she owas bully my son one! " [omg, when did i bcom big bully.. cmon her son s much more bigger size den me?!].. "oh i rmb u, cos dat time u date wif another guy den kena caught by me."... [..] cant dey jus rmb somethin good bout me? anyway, we talk for a while.. bout how skul changes.. n cik how has a baby already? OMG.. did i leave school for tat long???

den aft tat met weijie dey al at cs kimgary..met baoli n yt der.. wat a suprise!.. den wen to find chee hoe.. u noe we hav a bro n sis talk.. u noe, sometimes i rather hope tat he tells me by his mouth, rather than heard frm other ppl.. den he reminds me of meiqiang.. den wen out wif meiqiang for dinner.. so loooong time nv meet him, he s stil so 38 like b4.. but he s funny la.. promised me to go makan loklok on mon.. *yummy* .. aft tat wen out yumcha wif beh dey al.. cos weijie was here mah, so mus bring him around.. too bad he has to go bac on sunday.. but nvm la.. d distance btwin jb n melaka s not tat far..

cant slep yest nite.. feel like watchin sea.. din expect tat he would call.. but thx for the call i fel better.. struggling.. shud i leave all these behind n carry on like nothin happen, or jus face it without considering the consequences? jus hope that i can walk out of it..

..bored..

so boring at home.. got nothing to do at all.. wake up liao oso dono why i wake up so earli although i ve slep for 12 hours already.. i ll go down stairs get something to eat, watch tv, luckily my house got astro man.. aiyo who ask me to lend al those dvd to my frens?

b4 holiday, or even during exam, i was imagining how i m goin to enjoy my holiday.. supposedly it shud b fun.. n i hav a list of fren to meet up with.. but when i get bac to my home, i don fel like goin out.. it s not tat i no ppl to meet, no place to go, but i reli don fel like goin out.. rather let myself fa mei at home.. den throw my self on bed, sleeping can let time pass faster..but frm d inside of my heart i wana meet frens, wana go shopping, wana go some where else.. nex week la.. dis week jus let me fa mei at home lah kie?

..kl trip..

it s fun..!
of cos it s fun.. it s hard to share wif u guys how fun it is.. yea m know as shoppaholic, but i din shop much dis time.. instead, i hang out wif my frens more.. n i L O V it.. [yea la yea la i did buy clothes for myself..]

DAY ONE
went to times square to meet lyn wen i got there.. it s very near to pudu bus station,so bes place for ME to meet her.. den chit chatting at auntie annies while waitin for jeremy..for bout 1.5 hour i think.. den we go sg wang eat kim gary.. yuummmyy!

[me n lyn at kimgary sg wang.. so many ppl der.. OMG..anyway, we saw a long-bearded foreigner.. one word - YENG.lolz]

aft tat jeff came n meet us, fetch us n go find ada n niu niu.. den drink sweet soup at bean bean.. cos station1 is so FULL!..

[me n ada at beanbean.]

den aft tat wana go watch movie, den we go summit den onli realise it s too late for a movie.. den we bot burgers so can makan at d roadside.. wen to damai perdana resident area to makan.. nice view der.. den we do alot of stupid stuff. not WE, it s them.. hahahha.. i shud upload d videoo.. [to ed: they copy ur swimmin style!]

[WANTED : JEFFREY TAN ..opps.. wrong name.. WNY 7112]


DAY 2
wen to watch "the return".. well.. 1.5hour movie. it s a bit short.. n not shiok at all.. but still okie okie la.. den aft tat me n lyn wen bac home.. take bath thinking wer to go nex.. PLANNED to go midvalley n hav our dinner der.. den in d end we cudnt get a taxi [ohhell, wer are al those taxi driver?] i try to get help frm nissa, see whether she got any taxi driver number.. but in d end we wait till her uncle came bac.. LUCKILY, he s willing to fetch us to d steamboat shop near UCSI der.. den we met up wif shihui.. eat 3ppl steamboat.. den we go to her apartment..

[dono-wat-name apartment. shihui stays in the highes floor.. 28th floor.. *scary seh*]

[me n lyn n shihui in her room..i tel u, her roomie s so crazieee *scary*.]

den aft tat me n lyn wen bac lyn's place.. i tel u, her place is super nice.. i dono y, fel so comfortable der..

[home sweet home.not mine, lyn's place at cheras. ]

DAY 3

wake up at 1++pm.. den go to midvalley shopping..to buy presents for my fren.. but in d end i din buy things for frens, but buy for myself.. i m so in lov wif ROMP.. nicey clothes.. den we go to makan sushi king as TEA TIME snack.. lolz.. cos we are so hungry.

[sea horse sushi. lolz. nola, it s shrimp.dono wat happen to it, bcom a sea horse aft it kena fried.. i took dis pic cos it remind me of the movie. "the return".. ppl who watched ade onli get wat i mean..lolz.]

[then me n lyn took komuter bac home..she wen bac her auntie place at klang.. i go subang find jeremy. ]

aft meet up wif jeremy at subang, makan dinner wif him.. den we bot cake for niu niu.. his bday mah.. mus celebrate with creammyy cake [if u noe wat i mean, we wan d cream on his face!] ..

[cake wif onli one candle.. clever niu noe wat s in our mind.. stole the 9more candles.aiks]

[in the end he stil kena one la..lolz]

den we wen to ada's place.. stay over nite der..

[wg is taking photo.. n i was takin photo of them taking photo..lolz..]

[tiredness.]

[missy ada foo s doin a photo album for her hubby justin.. so sweet n so SWEET.. cant find another word to use.]

[tiredness 2]

DAY 4

we wen to pyramid to buy present [again? ada wana buy prezzie for her hubby.. 21!!]den we meet up wif her oz frens.. one of em is KOREAN! she s cuute.. i mean they are cute.. so frenly.. we makan at kimgary AGAIN..

[aileen, hyem -korean, and joanne..]

[wg me n ada.]

[xuanhao, giv me five!]

[me n benzi..]

[benzi n xuan hao at "i need" house.. it sells condoms..woo..]

den aft tat we change our plan, instead of goin to luna bar wif ada dey al, we decided to go to niu's place.. his bday mah.. play games, watch "lame" movie.. bla bla bla..

[niu niu's bday sure hav to buy niu (cow) thingy for his present.!]

[playin games at niu's place.]

[me n benzi.. ]

kfc.. dat s d place we settle our dinner der..

[kfc combo 1]

DAY 5

wg,xuanhao n me travel bac to melaka.. on d way, we met angmoh.. frm czech republic. wow. sampat.. lolz.

SPECIAL THANKS : CHUA TEE HAI..

thx again to him, cos he fetch us bac to ixora, to get our stuff den go bac to sentral again to take bus.. within a day, we spend more than 5 hours on travelling.. i think i m very suitable to go oversea.. cos get used at spendin time on travelling..lolz..

to prove that me n wingee are unseperable.. see..

[13 14.. in chiness means forever n ever.. this s d seat me n wg sit.. we realised on d way bac to jb.. yea.. forever n ever.. *yeeww..*.. lolz]

tat s all i guess.. so many things to blog out ..

yea i damn agree wif nissa dis time.. to blog an entry not bcos got somethin to blog, but to blog so dat we got something to do.. trust me. i ll be bac in dis blogger dashboard very sooooooon...

..the guardian..

ve been thinking where to go for the whole afternoon, den me n hai decided to watch "the guardian" in makhota parade.. well we realli got nothing to do.. staring at the board, "the guardian" is the onli movie that we are interested to watch, sommore mos of em we watch ade.. heard tat it s quite nice so yea we decided to watch loh..

at first i was onli attracted by the handsome ashton kutcher,as a champion swimmer who are willing to join coast guard team, to save lifes.. n kevin costner as the senior chief in the academy and also a legendary rescue swimmer .. wat impress me the most is his spirit.. as a rescue swimmer, he showed the true meaning being a rescuer, "so others may live".. he is willing to sacrifice himself to save the others..

although it s just a movie, but how many ppl can do until like dat? self sacrifice? nah.. to accept from ppl, easy, but to give out what u have, it s hard, but it s a right thing to do..

....

wat did i do yest? BASICALLY, i did nothing but watchin show n playing games.. n den i realised tat d games in my com not nice one.. playin dota o2jam n zuma onli.. so boring lah.. watch few movie yest, high skul musical, n hongkong movie..

finally beh n weijie dey al came bac to melaka.. woke me up at 8am, for goodness sake i slep at 4am++ okie? ask me go makan breakfast pulak.. hahha~ so happy dey bought me tambun biscuit.. nice.. it cud b my breakfas ade lah~.. n beh bought wingee one box too.. lolz..

fel so bad make my frens worry bout me.. wingee cal me everynite to scold me.. for wat the hell reason i wana stay in melaka but not goin bac jb.. well, i wana go kl mah, don wana go bac jb den come up some more.. but she noe it wasnt d reason.. tat's y kep scold me silly.. thx to ahmi, sms me so i won be tat bored.. yea thx fella frens, i m fine here..

..holiday!..

finally.. holiday time.. yea, aft 3 days toruting ourselves preparing for the 2nd trimester final.. finally we are FREE! but i reli have to agree tat student's life ll bcom empty wen there's no exam.. aft exam like totally donno wat to do.. play games lo, watch show loh.. tat's all i can do..

unlike las sem break, this sem break i choose to stay in melaka.. though i was alone here, [not alone actually la, still got friends here.]but i think i ll enjoy being alone here.. lolz.. den i ll go kl find my friends.. my long time nv see dear fren - lyn, ada foo [god,till now i haven see her yet leh..], mi n d rest loh.. i think i ll shop for my cny clothes.. actually i ade shop alot here.. who ask mng n sam&kev on sale? lolz...

thx to my dear housemates, scared i ll get bored here.. lend me al dvds,ice age2 is damn funny, click oso farni n touching.. thx to hsien oso.. help me dl hongkong series show.. i hav plenty of show.. lolz

sien leh.. i think i ll fa mei.. u ll see my update very often dis days..lolz..

..hope?..

read a random blog jus now.. but after i read his blog, feel so.. erm.. he wrote all about his gf, nothin much bout his life, jus about his gf, his love one.. it s nothing wrong to express his love to everyone, but he gave me a feeling tat she was his only hope, only reason he lives in this world.. n he s a melancholic thinker, think negatively, like everything ll be end up worse. i won deny if u say we all living in a complicated world, but wat matters is how are we going to face this complicated world?

Question came to my mind, 'what is ur hope on earth?' or 'what is the reason u wana keep urself alive'.. fine if u say 'i don wan to die'.. but when all things fade away, wen ur hope perish, will u still hav the faith or courage to stay alive? some people think MONEY is the most important thing, that s the first thing we hav to work for, in order to lead more comfortable life.. but if one day, lets say, lets say la.. from now on, malaysian ringgit is no longer value, that means everything u earn with ur tears n blood, is totally meaningless.. u cant use ur money to buy food, clothes, or even houses.. u ll feel that u ve been working so hard, for the money, n now all things come to an end..

or mayb ur hope is ur love one.. mayb ur wife/husband, bf/gf.. n now, lets say, lets say onli la.. one day, he/she betrays u, abandon u, or died.. they just gone for the next moment.. den u ll feel ur life is meaningless. cos u FEEL that u cant live without them.. n THEY are the reason u keep breathing..

i dono, but i ll definitely won live for a human being.. i mean human ll die rite? if u live just for a human being, so that means if he/she dies, ur life is ending soon? don live for the things that u can c,or can feel, or won last for eternity, cos it doesnt worth ur life..

i don understand why is there such people will onli think negatively? mayb is bcos of other factors which happen when they are growing up, or mayb bcos of their environment, or mayb it s born natural, they jus cant help thinking like dat.. but if u feel that u are thinking in a negative way, try to talk things out, or even tell ur frens about ur prob, tell out everything tat is copin in ur heart.. cos when u are thinking in tat way, u cant help urself, get some one to help u..

tragedy happens when they think somethings cant be solved.. i beg to differ.. nothing is cant be solved.. mayb for some situation, u ll think it s hard wen u re fightin alone.. get a pal, or friends, n dont fight alone..