..still not sleping..

yea it's 12.44am,
normally at this time
i ll be lying on bed waiting myself to fall aslep.
but guess what am i doing now?

i m doing C A L C U L U S..

wow.. rajin nye..
neva tot that i'll be that rajin for calculus..
compare to my las physics paper..
i ade "killed" my physics test 1,
i don wan my calculus die too..
sommore i am ambitious..
to get another dean's list cert dis sem..
nah,cos i reli don feel confidence when doin calculus que..
i had that feeling..
so mayb do more exercise u ll feel more secure (??)..

aft being "dependent" for around 6 months,
away from family n frens,
i ve get to know more frens here..
diff ppl..
as in u ll see more diff people around u..
selfishness, self-centered, bossy, arrogant..
u can never judge the book by its cover one..
and u ll neve know what's in ppl's mind..
i can onli accept them as who they are,
cos u noe, no one is perfect..

something happen recently..
there's a fren of mine,
he s done something that s not good..
which u cannot blif he did that one..
it s like "wow,cannot be him..",
"there must be a misunderstanding"
u noe,i was thinking how to face dis fren,
shud i stil be fren with him pretending i dono anything bout it?
or shud i stay away frm him like any1 else?
who knows i ll be d nex victim?
u noe,u cud be d nex victim..

but.. i stil choose to pretend i dono anything..
mayb he got his own reason..
n he do not wan anyone else noe..
n he reli cant find anyway out..
i dono..
i'll stil call him "brother" when i see him..

i rmb some1 told me this,
[people judge u by what you have and what you've done,
but GOD knows who you really are]
you have no possesions but u are generous..
you are successful but u are greedy to ask for more..
when u are too attached to what's around us,
you ll find that all it contains will pass away.
sooner or later..