when i scroll down my contact list in msn,
i realised that many of my frens put this kind of personal message
-->
"tomolo,i ll be dead!FZ!!"
"walau, y so many to memorize"
"fizzziiikkkk, i llooovveee uuuu!"
"tomolo is the most scary day of my life.."

well, there's no the war of harmagedon (symbol of the coming of end time!) tomorrow,
and there's no tsunami tomorrow,
but we ll be having our physics paper tomorrow..
why are we so scared the coming of this day?
physics, the most important subject for foundation engineering students,
and this is the easiest subject to get "F" in ur achievement record..
well, i believe that there are few factors influence our physics result,
1- lecturer
2-sendiri
our class is so fortunate to have mr kang kang - kang chi keng as our lecturer,
though he got pronounciation prob,
but he s a very good lecturer,
to him,every single physicz question is easy..
when u go to his office to ask him physics que,
he will just read the que, pick up his pencil,
telling u "since u ve got XX, and XX, so u can just replace in the formula,
then it will be XXX.. easy right?"
yea, EASY RIGHT?
let me score A in my paper then i ll say it s EASY k?

the end of examination, means that i ll start working in padini AGAIN,
3 weeks holiday, i have no where to go,
and i dont think other employer ll hire me for 3 weeks or less..
so im going back to my padini again...
and i ask kenny (my supervisor) what shift i will be working on friday,
k: " morning shift.."
yl:"good, i never know u treat me that well."
k:"no, after friday u will have 7 days noon shift continouously.."
.......
he is trying to treat me well right? trying damn hard.....
......
......

goodbye to langkawi, goodbye to my dears, goodbye to kl shopping centre,
i am going to work again..

just come back from exam hall,
finish my 3rd subject - computer app.,
well, i submit earlier AGAIN,
it is due to my sleepyness,
it's not that hard, but it is not easy also,
i use my 6th sense to do most of the question,
and pandai pandai fully use the option it gives in MCQ que..

i didnt sleep well last night yesterday,
erm,i should say i didnt sleep much..
3 hours, to me, memang tak cukup lah..
then it reminds me of ada saying : don't study until tak cukup sleeping~!"
well, but see who's saying this?
not convincing at all..

in my mind now --> PHYSICS, PHYSICS,SLEEPING,
as in i cant think properly now,
i m really looking forward the day when we finish our final exam,
yay yay, so damn happy~!
but when i think of i ll be working for my 3 weeks holidays,
SIENZ~..
u know what is mao dun?
it s a mixture of 2 oppostite feelings..

and, i hate haze.. hrgh! made me kena flu..
sobsobz..

12 hours to my computer app. exam.. the subject i scared the most..
i hate to memorize things, especially it s not formed by numbers,
onli words, definition, and definition..
sienz~but i really don't have mood to study leh.. let it fail..
but i cannot do this..

i was really angry about it..
i never know that he will said that..
like as if i asked for it, and so i deserved it..
i dont expect anything from him,
but every single word he said,it hurts me..
yea we arent meant to be together,
and i try to talk to him, but what i ve got back from him,dissappointment..
and i know there s nothing we can talk about ade..
i just feel that i need to talk with him,
cause i dont want it end up like that..
but.. i think we cant even be friends now..
for what he has done to me,
for what he has said..
i dont care if he put all the blame on me,
and i dont care if he thinks that i am being unreasonable or wateva,
and i dont care if he thinks that i am not the "yinling" that he knew,
and i dont care what he thinks anymore,
from now onwards, i ll treat him as stranger..
i didnt know him, i dont know him now, and i will know this fella anymore..

my friend is right, don't let this thing effect ur mood,
learn ur lesson from it,
u ve seen this guy wrongly,
so, u ll never fall for this guy anymore,
and so u can move on without any hestitation..
good what, so i wont be missing him anymore,
and i wont asking myself whether i still have feelings to him..

kiela,i should end here.. really have to go prepare for my exam,
or else i ll die man..
13 chapters more to go..
(wat the biang~)

18 chapters to be finished before monday 9AM~!
but i was so damn no mood to study leh..
for the whole morning,i onli study 1 chapter (and not yet finished yet)..
den was chatting, lying on the bed, listening to songs..
sighz` i really dont feel like studying now leh..
although i have to..
okie, be determine! i ll try to force myself study abit after i finish this blog..

i read some1's bulletin..it s a survey on her ex..
and i knew her ex..
i dont really know what's happening between them,
but recently i ve read alot of her saying bout her ex..
is it so hard to forget some1 that u loved before?
(duhhh~ of course lah!)
how hard is that? can time heal the wound?
from my experience, NO..
but face it, try to talk things out, and you'll feel better..
but i still don't understand why i don dare to face it..
does it mean that i still have feelings to him?
nah,i dont want to, cause my life will be miserable if i still do..
but my life is good.. i know it s over..
and i am trying to move on now..

and i read another gal's blog..
writing her ex..
and i know her ex..
he was so sad without her..
what's hurt the most? to him, losing her is like losing his heart..
he s a nice guy.. but everytime when i see him laughing,
that s reminding of the time when he was down..
like no one knows him..
well,i just wish that he will be happy..

yea i remember la i remember la..
i need to revise liao, so i ll have to end this post..
though i really don feel like ending it,
cos if i end it, i ll have to revise..
this is what we called..mao dun..
"_"

i MUST post this~!
yesterday we have alots of fun (*although i missed some parts*!)
to all who are too busy and forgot to celebrate this festival,
yesterday is MID AUTUMN DAY~! (Mooncake day~!)yay yay..
and our siao zapo da bian mei - ms ho wingee,
dont know why so high go buy lantern..
and ask many ppl to go celebrate together near d swimming pool there..
wabiang~really quite alot of people were there la..
fwens and strangers,
but we have a lot of fun there..
chit-chatting, makan mooncake, playin or *burnin* the lantern,
melting all the candles (lao niu did it~!), playin poker (khangjie chaukian n those gamblers),
taking photos (but most of them is with a cheng),playin with the rope..(again.. lao niu started it!)
(*again,lao niu is bi xian~ n his name - lao niu is known in mmu.)
and of cos,we all got wet, (duh,we are so near to the swimmin pool..~!)
i came back my apartment first, cause i was the first got wet.. and it was quite embarassing..
but i ll still let the dry people get wet one..hahha
NO ONE CAN RUN AWAY~! yay yay..
in the end,they all come back WET... hahah.. be li good..hahha

just finish my exam+slep for 2 hours..
felt so empty (mentally n physically)
(physically empty = hungry)..
still have all "conventional","intelligences according to XXX","postconventional morality"
all those Human D phrases in my head..
n now i have to put all "protocol","buses","secondary storage"
all the Computer App. phrases in my head..
so eventually my brain ll say tak boleh tahan den burst~
wow, shiok man~...
sighz~..
exam weeks.. i really hate it..
wana post some photos on my blog, so things ll become more interesting,
but hor.. recently i din take any photo.. jus record some videos..
hahhaa,i promise ed i ll show them to him,
cause it s bout wingee's real self..
wabiang,cant imagine how she do like dat to her self..
if u wana see,come find me lah~hahha~

study at night, n sleep at day times,
my time s totally terbalik ade man..
but yest night i really cant sleep,
worrying too much,
think too much,
and of course i must thank the mosquito accompany me..
(WTH~!@#)
it s a perfect weather for me to sleep,
rainy, windy, cold..
but i just cant sleep..
will things work out for us? i don't know..
i really do hope it will..
but will ended before it start?
i don't know..
if it really does, then i think i ve left nothing..
i won't even think try another time..
sad seh..

4 more days counting down to exam,
and 14 more days to the end of exam..
14 days.. two more weeks.. oww..so long..
jus woke up,got nothing to do so come blogging a while,
normally at this time i ll be in library with tee hai they all,
but i was really tired, and sleepy somemore..
so maybe get a nap so that i can study at night with shiang they all..
wow,they all so rajin sial, yesterday i left at about 3++am,
and they all are still so semangat studying..
wow~ okie, tonight i think i ll pia finish doing my physics past year..
human dev exam on monday, though i heard that it s quite hard,
but i ll listen to viv, study it on fri, concentrate on memorising it,
3 days i think i can finish all..
i dont want to pressure myself too much,
but i really want to do well in this exam,
so must keep praying lah~..
hope 3 weeks can pass faster~..

finally back in melaka~
im going to miss my bed,
miss my family, and miss him the most..
3 more weeks then i ll have to go back jb,
and have fun for my holiday..
i ve look for kenny,telling him i wanted a job,
but 3 weeks only,see whether he wants me or not..
and reallly cui liao la~
i haven't study at all..
die liao la.. move my things,
i think i ll be staying in library from now on..
tomorrow only i ll start studying lah..
today no mood leh~ feel like swimming leh~
hahha~..

2 days ago,my mind is - i want to study,fully use this holiday,
but aft 2 days, i still havent study a thing..
WAT THE BIANG>>~
conversation between me n my mum:-->
me : "hiyo,i'm bac!"
mum : "hahha,finally u're back,i thought u said u come back to study?"
mum : "but where have u been these few days?"
me : "haha,erm..erm.. i ll start tomorrow.."
mum : "i thought u going shopping with me tomorrow?"
me : "then i ll start on mon loh.."
mum : "u leaving on monday right?"
me : "..........."
i can predict where i will spend my time for the next whole week..
MMU LIBRARY~!
good wad,got air-con,got chair,got people teaching me..
WOW,DAMN GOOD RIGHT?
okay.. i ll have to stop being so playful leh..
counting down days to final exam --> 7 days..
OMG~~!

i ve been hanging out with kevin alot this few days,
he bring me go makan makan,
wow,now there's second thing i can predict now,
i ll put on weight.. for sure..
cause i didnt want to go shopping or any other place..
now the only thing that might draw my attention is -->
DELICIOUS FOOD~!hahha~
and few days ago i ve promised hai to go makan nice ice cream..
n i still owe him 1 meal for fetching me to central..
(no wonder he always offer fetching me to central,free meal huh~?!)
for people who dont know and very blur when u reading this blog,
hai is my classmate,damn nice,a very good person,
helpful, n he always teach me physics one.. my sifu u know..
funny guy.. hahah~
watch "miami vice" yesterday night..
wow,i cant believe malaysia censorship unit being so cruel,
i mean they have censored alot of scenes,
and they edit till like very cacat one..
i can say the story of the movie is good,
but hor,i really think that the director not good d leh
u go watch it and u'll know lah~..

kla,i stop here.. want to go watch my OC~yay yay..

finally bac in jb~!
yay yay, plan to study properly dis time..
for my final exam i mus pia ade,
i already can imagine i spending days and nights in library,
jia you for me okay? cause i really want to do it well..
sometimes i really feel that i am very fortunate to have friends around me,
shaoni and ed came to visit us this week,
for wingee's bday,
and of course shaoni envy us alot,
cos we all like having alot of fun living together,
yes indeed,
+ screaming + singing + laughing + JOKES..
and i really feel comfortable living there,
like enjoying my uni life..
aiyo.. cant bear to leave melaka leh,
although i know i ll have to go to cyberjaya for my nanotech,
but in my mind, i still looking for something that is worth for me to stay in melaka,
and i really wish that i ll stay in melaka..
1 more weeks to finish this semester,
and 2 more semester to finish my foundation year,
wah,time really flies leh~
but we all have to learn to enjoy our lifes right?
that's what i learnt from raul..

yea here i com again..
hahha~ nan de monday m so free,
normally i got 7 hours clas one,
but thx to eng clas cancel,n PHD as well,
i oni got 5 hours clas.. hhaha
very gd liao loh..
cos tml onli one hour clas..
gd i can study liao~
mus pia for my final..
reli wana do it well,get first class..
den can get my nanotech..
i dono whether i can do it anot..
hav 4 on 4 today,
well, we won,against the international team..
but don hav form to play today actually..
dono why..
gd news here, goin bac to jb again~!
yea,cos nex mon holiday..
go bac don go out sure can study one..
if stay here oso won study..
mus set my mind to reli study well first~
yay yay~!

wow,the las updated post = 1 month ago?!
i love dis blog,honestly,
jus tat i don hav time to blog leh~ (excuses~!)
but,...
ixora connection zap (TRUE!)
so i oso fel damn bad din update leh,
din even reply in my taggie board..
yea i rmb u my dear meishyuan,
n my dear lao po nini~
mis u so much leh~ nv c u since i go melaka..
aiseh~
wel, tok bout my life here..
im now in jb mah~
actually wana spend more time at home..
yea n so i did ;)
dono y nowadays wen i com bac jb don fel like goin out..
jus wana stay at home..
relax.. do my stuff.. i was bz enuf in melaca,
so i jus wana relax.. take things easy..
i begin to like mmu life..
though owas got exam..(every fri got exam for d pas 3 weeks k?!)
i like my classmates, i like siao-ing wif nissa,
i like playin vb in mmu,i like the team,
i like d study group fren (dey are reli great~!)
i like to spend time in library (yeayea,m lying)..
i like d housemates who owas kee-siao wif me
( yea,ho wingee,m sayin u.. n dat gal--vivian toh,made me pay 390~!)
i like d food which reli can make me fat one..
m i havin a gd life here? yea i am..
my seniors ask me to enjoy the present,
cos it s goin to b "past tense" very soon..
time flies rite? yea..
back to reality.. i hav an assignment to pass up nex week.. fri again..
topic -- LINUX FUTURE..
well, it s hard to predict the future of linux..
so dis assignment s damn hard..
n i wish my group can get gd scores..
wish me luck ba..
2 more weeks to final exam..
i wana get first clas.. for my nanotech..(or mechanical mayb?>?)
gam ba teh neh~!

soree my bloggie~

it s been a long time i sign in my blogger dashboard..
well i reli don hav much time to blog recently..
las week,whic is my exam week,
i hav 3 tests,3 assignments, 1 presentation,n tutorials to pass up..
i tot i was dead dat time..
but well, m stil alive lah~hahha~
it s over ade la~i dono hows d exam.. i don wan2 noe either..hahha
wel,wen to cyberjaya campus for intercampus match..
for d first time cyberjaya won melaka campus..
overall la,n for gals vb team oso..
yea we lost..
..1) we din train cos it s exam week,
2) play wif seniors who we don even met in melaka
3) play for 3 hours (dat s d longest game tat i ever seen n played
but i hav admit tat,they are reli gd..
wel,i think i ll b goin cyberjaya nex year for my engineerin course la..
here's some pic of my teammates (huahrong n rachael lah)

now on holiday liao loh~
though it s pretty long but stil not enuf for me..
der are stil so many ppl i haven met,
frens tat i loved, frens tat i reli wana go meet..
n sommore m goin kl dis fri..
yuan ben plan to go c my kl frens,
but they act comin bac for holiday dis sat..
no fate lo no fate..sighh~..
but nan de wen out limteh wif ed..
n he s drivin..though we hav episode in petrol station ( i won go der again)
but wel,m stil safe..thx ed..~
dis s photo we took in d "che zhen" ed's kenari car..~hhhaha

well dat s all i wana up date lah~tml baru update more.~

wow,long time nv blog ade,
the las time i blog is like,
2 weeks ago,
act i hav lots of things to blog about,
jus tat i don hav d time to write it out,
or,ixora apartment connection hates me,
that s y~
wel,m not in ixora obviously,
m in my computer lab,
ve fin my tutorials earlier,
so can go online bloggin..~

i had my precalculus test las fri,
n it s screwed up..
if any1 advise u to do tutorial and pas year que,
i tel u,
it s useless,
cos those que are much simpler den d real test,
d test is hard like shit man~
okay,well,plus my nervousness,
it s bloody hard la~
den i noe i screwed it,
cos i realise my mistakes AFTER i pass up my paper to the lecturer~
die la die la~
fine,forgot bout the test..

let s talk bout my fav vb frenly match on sun,
wel,we din act LOST the game,
we jus DIN finish our game..
we planned to play 'best of 5'
tat mins we play 5 games to determine who s d winner,
n d first 2 game,we lost,
i admit it-- the players were all no mo qi,
not enuf training, n not warm up,
d setter,i nv seen her b4 in any trainin,
no more comment bout her,
i don wan to comment my player,
til d 3rd match, our coach rearrange the position,
den d 3rd match was reli gd,
n we win them..
i can say they are reli strong,
but i blif tat we can do better,
so we tell our self we can win bac in d nex 2,
den sir said,
"erm,it s goin to rain soon,
so let the guys play..
the game is finished.!"
oooowwww...

sigh..gtg..times up for computer lab~

happy weekend!
welcom bac my dear ada!!
hahhha,reli ve a long time nv c ada,
she bcom thinner ade..
i,wg,viv,ej,bx,beh wen to kl yest,
to find ada n d guys der,
den too bad ed cant b der la,
n den d shihui oso cant make it,
too bad la,
den we wen to yuen steamboat makan..
fulll tttiiiillllll~~~~...
i reli dono i can makan so much,
cos aft steamboat we all go hartamas lim teh
*to ed:nenebubu,we al go hartamas le!!*
den i order viv's fav fried mushroom,
whic i promis her to bring her makan,
den ikan bakar lo,ada said she fin half of it,
which i don think so la..~
den go bac ada's place..
chat wif ahmi,cos i tot ada slept ade,
den don wan kacau her,
mayb can update her more bout us d nex day la..
things are solved,fel released..
*haha,farni rite m sayin dis? but it s true!*
but m reli happy la..

hahha,y m i so free to blog at dis hour?
u noe wat? i kena halau balik frm lab man,
cos i wear "short" pants,whic reach my knee one,
den he ask me com bac change pants,
den ok lo,i com bac,
den shun bian blog awhile den baru go bac..
hhhmmmppphhh..

i shud hav blog more man,
cos i owas hav lots of things to say,
den i dono who to tel,
kesian vivian owas listen to me crappin b4 slep,
u noe,tired ppl craps one..
so m i..
den i owas tok til topicless,
den i start makin weird voice,
kesian her man..
but i kesian jess more,
*cos she same room wif wg la>~

i like my life in mmu,
at least i can get along wif my classmates now,
at least the guys arent so COOOLLL or COOOOLLD to other ppl,
at least i can laugh loud loud wif my dear nissa n other gals,
at least i can play play like tat,
but i mis my jb frens la,
mis the stupid suagu edwin
(now got NICO replace him,but i m not so masak wif him yet,
n he s not that suagu la)
i mis the times we wen to redbox n neway,
sigh...

nex week got test man,
havin quiz today,2 chapters,
dono how to read sial,
shud hav sit bsid clever ppl..

stressed seh..
today onli i realised tat today is week 4 ade le,
oh myyyy..
dat mins we ll hav our exam very soon,
how soon le?
today onli i noe tat nex week got precalculus exam,
den after nex week den got physics exam +++,
den nex weekend i hav to go kl for ada,
but nex sun got frenly match,
n assignment for com.app mus b passed up by tml,
plus sommor got quiz tat day so mus study,
den physics tutorial mus b passed up nex mon,
n sommor got quiz n test in dis month,
wabiang,i fel damn stressed le,
fel like hav lots of things to do,
but...sigh..it s not tat m lazy now,
it s i dono how to do..
esp wen i dono wat the crap kang is tokin bout in front,
*kang is my physics lecturer*,
even i understand but wen i c the que i dono how to do ade,
wah seh~~
den everyday go play vb,
got dis n dat meeting,discussion,
CLS (chinese language society) got camp m not free to go,
annual meeting i go play vb,
aiya.... everyday live in maodun-ness...

it s gd to be tat bz la,
at least no nid to fan over those things,
which made me reli fan dis few days,
i owas tel myself--
get myself bz den u won think bout tat anymore,
at least i noe i hav to concentrate on my studies now,
no matter wat my feelin is now,
it doesnt matter anymore,
but i m reli cruel hor?
say no again to him,
sighhhh~..sorry..
i stil don hav the courage to face u yet,
mayb i won hav d guts to c u anymore,
so pls let me go pls...
dono wat the hell m sayin now..

i hav to go library liao,stayin at home ll made me slep,
go library at least can study

days passed fast,
it s goin to be friday very soon,
yay,can go bac jb loh~
i m reli lookin forward dis time goin bac home,
cos der ll b alot of ppl go bac jb,
den we can go hang out together again,
but seems d time ll not b enuf,
*as i promised shi hui*,
go hari koko,cs,jusco,hailuo..
wow~ yay yay!
i jus wana get out of dis hell la,
so tired d le~

haven slep well for d las 2 days,
troubling..
but luckily i hav him pei me tokin on d phone wif me,
: ) *though i stil fel guilty bout tat*
everything s goin to be fine .. i think so..~
yest nite ixora's boys all wen crazy la,
cos dono y no electricity,
den every1 go balcony screamed like hell...
it was 12AM MIDNIGHT le for goodness sake,
i wanted to slep one,i reli wan,
but then....they scream so loud..
wat the **** man...
it s like rioting starts,so horrible,
n i saw a man jump out the balcony
*he s not dead yet la*
den jump bac through the window,
wat the hell he s thinking?
making a show ar?
tat s 8th floor le wahbiang..

don get me wrong,
ixora apartment won b so nice to me
to let me go online at dis hour,
no doubt at all,
m in mmu computer lab,
was supposely doin my tutorial rite now,
but since i ve finish it,
den i shudnt hav waste a chance to blog rite?
rite?
rite?
i think so..
hahha~
blog abit oso shuang~
chaoz~

yea yea
m getting well..
mentally,m fine,m fine,
physically,m not..stil coughin like hell,
sore throat..
but..don worry,i m recovering!
n der s som ppl who oso fel sick,
my pretty "younger" sis,(hahha,sisters mah)
weisern,
shaoni..
wish em ll get welll sooooonnn...

gossip bout my younger sis a lil bit,
she got a BF!
wow,finally..
ohwait,i nv said it s gd to pak toh at dis age,
but i m not disagree wif tat,
n i actually fel happy for my sis,
when i received her call,
i can hear how happy she is,
i owas fel glad to c ppl happily sweetly in love one,
mayb bcos i don hav,
tat s y i envy la..
hahha~ wat the heck..

2 days 0.5 hour to mon,
sad sial..
i stil hav lotsa of hw haven do..
since i ve absent those 2 days,
i fel tat i was so left out sial,
dono wat teacher teaching,
thus dono how to do hw,
den fel so stupid,
wat la,1st topic tutorial oso dono how to do..
1st topic math oso dono how to do,..
stupid me la..
i try to look for it in d book,
but d "reference" book ar,
too thick till no reference to refer one,
geng hor~>?!
walao~ how to do? how to do?
no one willing to teach me oso~
how i wish i was in group PE02 one,
can discuss wif em..
but i wasnt..sad seh~
fine,i plan to go library tml,
get all d referrable reference book,
den try to figure it out..
den get done wif my eng presentation,
*i hav to do d hands out oso le@!*
sighhhh~..
n PCA assignment..
LINUX FUTURE
wat the heck..
wat the heck..
wat is LINUX?
waliiiuuu,wat kind of topic is dis man>>?!
aiya,i ll settle wif tat topic aft 2 weeks la~
sigh~

wen to play vb dis 2 days,
okla,got rachel n huarong,
not bad lo..quite fun..
but body ache ar,wat to do/?
yest aft playin vb,
i was quite depressed,
it made me thinking of him,
a guy tat i ve lost contact for a damn long time,
n i reli started to miss him so much ade,

YL: wingee,how? i started to miss him le!
WG: (cruelly)aiya,mis him for wat?useless ade lo
YL:....ya lo... *sad*

sigh~ somtimes i don hav the courage to call him,msg him even a forwarded msg..
somtimes i reli wan2 tel him tat i stil rmb him,stil missing him..
but..wat s the point./?
useless de lo~

m sick!
it s been a long time i fel so sick~
yest wen to c doc,
n he said mine one quite serious,
cos fever til 39++ degree,
n keep askin me to rest well..
i reli did rest well,
cos i think i ve been slepin 20 hours yest,
hardly wake up,
cos once i wake up i fel damn dizzy,
den i cant makan oso,
cos ll throw out everything i ate,
(i think dis can make me slimmer??!)
luckily i hav wg n vivian takin gd care of me..
touched seh~
now m feelin beta,
jus tat stil fel abit disgustin..
(d med is heellll man,so bitter..yyyeeeuuukkksss)
i ll be alright by tml,
n catch up all d classes i ve missed!..
sigh~ damn worry dat i cant catch up..
sigh~
i m goin to be fine..
i m goin to be fine..

IXORA APARTMENT connection zap daoooo~
walao..cant tahan d days without bloggin seh~
cant blame me if i sudden stop bloggin~

well,let s tok bout mmu skul life~
it s....
erm...
erm...
..
..
i tel u,d ppl here very weird one..
i saw alots of nerds here,
shuai ge s very rare specis here..
pretty gal oso not many..
my clas got 35 ppl,
5 gals,2 chinese 2 malays n one indian..
tat s pathetic rite?
my sis said
"good,u hav more chance!"
wat the * man~~
d boys are so not frenly n not gentleman..
d class s ok,lecturer teach fas wif slow monotone,
n i fel SLEEPY during my math class..
nope nope..
it shud b
PRE CALCULUS FOR ENGINEERING..
wow,chim name..
n it s jus PRE calculus..
n it s quite hard..reli~
n i hav 5 physics in my alpha year!
5..
physics 1,2,3 n physics lab 1&2,
for my alpha year,i jus study physics,eng,n math..
wel,i can see my future,
n i cant see my future now.~~
sad seh..
gd to live in ixora wif all my beloved frens
super blur wif wa2 wa2 ying1 vivian,
go-crazy-at-midnite- wingee,
"i wan2 slep"-jessica,
quiet-damn-gd-in-piano-jiayi,
n mabel..(hard to describe here)..
i reli enjoy stayin here..
but i DO MISS jb..
esp d frens there..(they rnt der anymore act..)
i mis lotsa of things..
ll upload photos wen d connection bac to normal>...

11th June 2006

Wana update today one,aft one whole day tiring orientation..
But hor I think every1 in ixora try to use the internet so much,
So I jus cant log in.. sad sial..
Today the orientation s stil d same la,same s in very lame, n I was like look in daze durin d whole briefing,den finally cant stand it liao,I slep at d bac pulak,for one whole hour briefing bout security,I was sleepin..so dono wat d hell he s tokin bout..
Den aft tat,thx to my blur queen vivian toh *m not sayin dis in a frenly tone*, den I hav to go bac my apartment,den since I was HOME finally,den we slep for bout 2 hours den onli head bac to d briefin.. hahhaa..darin le~~
Tomolo we all hav to wear the batik dey gav.. HAVE TO.. den I got L size,it s like god damn big for me..wingee lucky got XL,looks like she don nid to wear skirt la..damn farni d la.. hav to wake up 6am in d morning..WALAU e…wat kind of orientation is dis man?
I swear to god I won go for d orientation anymore,but hav to go for tml one,opening ceremony + briefin about PTPDN thingy.. den aft tat I can jus slag at my apartment,or jus go bac to my lovely jb home.. but dono la,I ll prefer go to kl for d mega sale …hahhaa
K la,I gtg~ dl omen..wana to watch it while my eyes r stil can open,.
Weather news -- > Melaka got abit rainin.. quite cold,damn suitable to slep la..hahha

update update~

wen was d las time i post? i think it s one week ago ba~
one week,actually quite a long and short time..
long bcos i hav wait for the coming of school intake,n i was reli lookin forward to go study soon..
short bcos i stil hav tons of things nv do,n cant do cos not enuf time liao..
wg owas tel me not to leave any regrets wen i go study..
so go meet any1 i want to meet..
n tat s my regret la..
cant meet those i want to meet.. cos schedule full..
go choose n buy laptop at d very las minute..it sounds ez--jus nid to PAY n SIGN..
but i stil hav to wait them download windows,check whether got prob anot..bla bla..
den stil hav things haven buy..things i nid in IXORA apartment..(tat apartment is EMPTY,for ur info..)
den hav dinner wif my grandmom n relatives..

COUNTDOWN DAYS TO MMU ----> 3 DAYS!

sorry la sebastian,jason,meiqiang,xiao xuan n peilu..think tat u all ll onli c me aft few months frm now..

we wen to redbox yest (sunday).. it s a gathering i shud say..
mayb it s d las time can sing k together wif our gang ba..
though som of em din show up..too bad..but we all hav fun..
here s som photo :::::
look-damn-pretty-evelyn,me n moved-to-sunway hostel-frm her permasjaya home-say wei..

me, n ni-hui-qi-ma-mah-edwin tsien

"angel"-ni hen bu inconsiderate leh~ - jas ng, not-smiling-jeremy, faking-tatoo-on-her-left-arm-shaoni..

say wei,evelyn, goin-to-be-my-roommate-vivian

yeala,dats all la..i got more la..but if u wana c,com find me la..

i did nothing today~?!

tel u wat i did today..den u ll find it---boring..
k wake up at bout 12.30pm in d morning(aftnoon ade la),den cos it was rainin,so i don fel like wake up..aft tat brush teeth,get somthin to eat,read newspaper,watch tv until my parents cam home,den i eat again(cos dey da pao for me,i dono how many meals i eat a day),den watch tv til dono wat time,lie on bed do nothing,listenin to linkin park's songs,play maple til i lvl up,den take bath,go out makan wif parents,den com bac watch tv..(u c,i hav to watch tv how many times a day?>cant count le..)..


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so tat s my weekend seh~ so damn boring.. (c,wen i hav somthin to blog,i cant,wen i hav nothin to do n blog for fun,my com was jus being damn obedient seh..wat the .. man..) it s like tat la,things arent goin in ur way,den u ll get frustrated..

count down days to mmu: 11days.. (how come stil so long one? 'i hate waiting!'--quoted frm ahbeh..)

how hard to say no?or 'no,thx'

i jus don understand..i am confused...
how hard to say no? it s hard..cos i dono wat he wud fel wen i jus keep turn him down,n do i sounds like "sorry i cant,cos i hav somthing on,m bz.." or "hey i don fel like goin out wif u,it s weird.." ??wat m tryin to say is i don wan any misunderstandin happen again.. n somtimes i reli der s nothin more den frenship..i hope he won get d wrong idea..n so i promised him ll ask him out nex week,which s d las weekend i hav in jb..

count down days to go to mmu:12 days..it s like i left one more week at home.. n i m suppose to go out met som frens b4 i go..but til now i stil haven meet mos of em..i ll miss em in melaka for sure..

wen ppl is unemployed n got nothing to do,ll get fed up ezly rite? yea i damn agree man..it s not onli me..i found tat my dad s d same kind of person.. i don like him nagging here n der,esp he s tryin to scream at u,talk to u loudly..hey cmon,this s ur home,not ur office,don scream at ppl can anot?n i don like him being too..xiao3 ti2 da4 zuo4..i don like d way he tok.. i admit i m being rude to him,yea mum said so..s in,i jus don like to tok to him,but i tel everythin to mum.din look at him or ignore him wen he s tokin to me (n i dono he s tokin to me?!)..cos HE JUS DON UNDERSTAND..hey i noe u hav ur plan,n i hav mine too,y m i suppose to go by ur way? i min ders nothing wrong wif my plan??man's ego..

to d photo dat i promis to update.. nex time wen m free ba.. (u r not free?!)..erm..

today = update day??!

i find som thing interesting~ new updates for every1 today? except for edwin tsien (lazy bone!)..
GOOD la, frens bloggin,den i like to go view em..at least i noe wat s goin on wif em..

dad lost his job.. again.. i min dis time more serious d la, cos he act leave d company..dono wat he wana do oso..dono how i m gonna pay my education fees oso.. quite he seems like no worry bout tat.. yea yea.. his character n mine,quite alike.. he reli bo rasa over d money matter..but my mum not slepin well lately..so how?? i oso dono la..pray tat he can find job soon,but not enjoying his life playing golf ( wat the??)..

good luck to me,m goin to study soon..yay yay...reli lookin forward to it..n can go church liao of cos..

goin to study soon yea yea~

hahha..finally made up my mind..since i cant go to petronas,der r other places tat i can go mah~ so i go mmu lo~wen to melaka yesterday..to c the apartment..well,i onli c one onli--ixora..dey said bukit beruang cant stay human being d..n since the major said we stay in ixora,so let it be lo..ixora s new,clean,secured..but hav nothing..so mafan..but thank god i ll be staying wif wingee,jessica,vivian(she perm a super cute hair le~),huifang n pris's cousin.. i think it ll be fun ba.. having huifang around..if very bored can ask wingee to sing oso..though tat ll b quite suffering la..

counting down days to mmu--16 days..quite long la..but ders stil lots of things for me to do..yest lao2 called n invite me to his concert in his jc..but too bad,i don hav passport..goin to get it soon..but d concert s on 24th..is it sempat to get my passport? i don think so.. but i reli wanted to go le.~ shun bian c c my long-time-nv-see gd fren edwin n jas ng..reli hav a long time nv c em..aiya,even he com bac oso won tel me or won call me d la..fren til today d la~heerrmmmppphh~

reli worry ada foo~ aft i read her bloggie,wah,seems like damn stressed seh~ who s forgotten u? who make u so sad? wat s wrong.. poor her,hav hundreds of tests, so many things to fan about~take care le,jia you jia you..cheer up k? u stil rmb tat i rmb u n treat u s my bestest fren k?

WAT THE ****...

jus now i ve typed one post,den dono y cant post..~wat the***..

call petronas dono how many times n no one picks up.. make it clear,i call at office time,call the correct numbers,but no one picks up..so s der any1 der in d office? so i tot mayb by sending email ll get their attention,noe wat their reply? [ pls call the following numbers to our registry office] duh,i called so damn many times n no one picks up tat s y i sent email!! i m gonna tel em there are other ways to reject me OKAY~ btw, tat makes me wana go mmu more..actually both oso subject tat i dono,n dis 2 seems pretty good for my future (nanotech s more risky,but anyway i bliv it ll bcom popular in dis region..compare to petroleum engineering,the range is wider i think??)..so..goin mmu for d accommondation thingy dis sunday..

wen to jason's bday party yest, saw alot familiar n not-familiar faces.. luckily tat i hav huiting n koliuk wif me..so i won b dat bored out..koliuk teach me play pool..hahah..nid to practise more nex time..hahah..n noe wat? yest, jason was d happiest man on d earth.. wow, his presents -- air gun by james(dono wer he got it),a lighter wif his potrait on it, a necklace wif his tatoo image on it, his fav mizuno hat,a lot n alot..wow.. i was like "wow"..big wow..n dats onli part of his prezz..n we hav fun der...play uno n dono scream like wat.. chitchatting.. saw alex but din tok much to him..but to my suprise he com tok to me first.. as in,i tot he don even noe how to say hi las time..
oya,i ll update pictures soon..

ada,i wish tat i ll b in oz oso..i reli started to hate this place..dono..but m getting more n more ez-frustrated now..i reli don like being locked up at home n do nothing..dat s one of d reason i wana go mmu so i no nid to wait til petronas july intake. fel damn sien here.. how i wish to turn on the damn-loud-noisy-techno-or-heavymetal music,so i can scream n no one can giv a damn.. SIEN AR~.. hate do nothing,cos tat makes me think wild,i cant decide on wat i hav to do..even wen m watchin real madrid vs serilla,din even scream out wen Real Madrid got the 4th goal in~ wabiang..

too bored at home la!

i was thinking--y human ll get frustrated when they hav nothing to do? im not referring anyone la,im sayin myself..i hate being at home all the time but do nothing.. wel,i did something today--ironing clothes,one basket of it.. most of em are my clothes..hehe

i m supposed to be in aeon jusco tebrau rite now, shopping n walk walk to choose a present for him..WAT SHUD I BUY FOR HIM? i reli hav no ideas..WAT SHUD I BUY? WAT SHUD I BUY? i saw a Tough Tshirt,thinking to buy for him,but,he said he don wan clothes..that s hard la..i reli dono wat to buy liao la..can i jus simply buy somthing for him? since he doesnt care about tat so much ade..n Y SHUD I CARE?

called UTP office so many times,----voicemail box..wat the XXXX .. no one picks up man..or m i MEANT to be in MMU? speakin of MMU, my mum said she s goin to c mmu apartment dis weekend.. donwan donwan,it s hard for me to imagine me with those e&e text book, i don like em, u noe der s "elektonik" bab for my form 5 fizik, n i hate it.. why those seramic things so complicated one.. n if u ask me wat i know about MY petroleum engineering, n i ll giv a big i-don-know face to u.. n i also don know wat to study about the COMPLICATED hidrocarbon thingy..SO WER M I GOIN?? n now,i ll giv u a big i-don-know face..

SSI skul reopen today.. heard tat eric wen for f6,hahah..hey,gals in ssi,u are blessed,he is damn handsome man..n he IS NOT A PLAYBOY too..when i noe bout this, haha,i was actually wanted to go for f6,first time in my life!.. n i told him tat ssi is not strict one,but i forgot to tel him--SSI SUCKS! well,i ll remind him next time,or mayb he ll noe it one day?!

update update lo~

wel,der s alot to update today~
quite many things happen mah i think~
n i reli hav gd times recently~
(excluded d time i get bored at home + i hav to iron d whole basket of clothes...)

5-5-2006 (friday)
yea,wen out wif wg,jer,pris n suprisedly sebastian too~
to buy prezz for BEH, n bot clothes,
cost me alot of money seh~wabiang,
i reli a spendthrift lo~
i WANA SAVE MONEY~
incase i ll broke wen m goin to study~
den hav to eat meehoon soup everyday~walao
I DON WAN
(but acc can keep fit le like dat~hahah,
wel,i prefer sports k????)
wen out wif sebas,go drink starbucks,go bookstore,
n he started wearin contact lens~
tat s SOOO~.erm, u judge ~~

n den aft tat,we (aft say gdbye to sebas--me,wg,pris n jer)wen to FOS,GUGO,PADINI,MILK,SUMMIT (y not VINCCI???)...wabiang~ waste money ar me~ sad seh~n we wok til 9.30pm,can u imagine?til me n pris were damn tired in d bus,n din said anythign~ tired la~

4-5-2006 (thursday)

today bored~ doin nothing but watch tv~n watch tv n watch tv~n ironin lO~ BORING DAY~

3-5-2006 (wednesday)

supposed to be in d swimmin pool wif nicole,jason n weixian in d aftnoon..but ......rainin la,so din wen out acc~ sad seh~ but den wen out lim teh wif han yap,ahtan n wenxi~ (guess who r they? hanyap s a fren i noe in padini~quite nice wif him,n he s kind of 38 d la,n ahtan--i dono him acc,but he s banana frm st joseph who s one of d member of "hongniao",zadao rite? --he cant even read but so active in chinese society..wenxi--first time met him,but he look so familiar to me~erm~~)n we lim teh at d long-time-nv-go anjung warisan,tat s wat we cal on-the-tree~ a very gd place to limteh~here s d pic of hanyap~(he s quite nice lookin d la~hahah)

2-5-2006 (Tuesday)

SSI CHOIR TEAM ROX~!!!

wel,i reli like their second song--when the lions slep ( i think la_~~) reli great~ wow,i was so impressed..wen i first listen to them singin dis song i was like..WOW~CHUN MAN~OMG~! but they lost to convent~ which i tot it was quit pity~ acc convent did a great job dis time,choosing phantom of the opera s one of the medley song~ not bad seh~ their voice s quite solid,but i ll stil prefer ssi team,cos they reli good at it, looked enjoyin,confident n u actually can feel the happiness wen u listen to them,.BUT WHY STIL LOST? erm, i personally think tat both team are reli great jus tat the judge prefer convent's style,n i bliv tat they hav arguement bout who ll b d champion (accordin to one of d judges la).. but they are reli great~ EDWIN,y u nv come? wasted seh~

here''s some of the photo on dat day~

mc president cheehoe n handsome geng yao~

convent vs ssi..

yiwen,handsome geng yao,cai yong,n wen ting

da vinci code? true or false?

honestly i like da vinci code,
it s a good book i can say,
n i acc waiting for the screening of the movie on 18th may,
nice to read,but cannot blif the content~
it s all FALSE~
i ve did some research bout the book,
wat s priory of sion? opus dei?
is jesus married or even hav children?
Did Constantine erase the so called "gospel" when compiling the Bible?
(i min the gospel of mary magdalene n the gospel of philip)

PRIORY OF SION
It is the most influential secret society in western history. It was used by a guy called Pierre Plantard,claim to being a legitimate pretender to the throne of France.So,Pierre Plantard,Philippe de Cherisey and Gerard de Sede were engaging in an out-and-out confidence trick, describing schemes on how to combat criticisms of their various allegations and how they would make-up new allegations to try and keep the whole thing going.They made out documents--Secret Dossiers,to prove that it s related to the Priory of Sion. After a few attemps, finally they admitted that it s all hoax and they 'created' all forged documents.
(for more info go check http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Priory_of_sion)

IS JESUS MARRIED?
No. Mary Magdalene was certainly close to Jesus. She wept at Jesus' tomb (John 20). Jesus even entrusted her to return and tell the disciples about his resurrection. But we have no reason to believe they were married. Brown says that Leonardo da Vinci's Last Supper reveals the secret. He writes that the figure to Jesus' right, traditionally known as the apostle John, is actually Mary. Not true. Artists often gave characters feminine features to portray youth. John was the youngest of the disciples.
Brown correctly observes that few Jewish men of Jesus' day did not marry. But why, then, did the apostle Paul, himself celibate, not mention Jesus and Mary when he argued that apostles could marry (1 Cor. 9:5--Don't we have the right to take a believing wife along with us, as do the other apostles and the Lord's brothers and Cephas)?


WHAT ABOUT THESE ALTERNATIVE GOSPELS THAT AREN'T IN THE NEW TESTAMENT?
The New Testament canon in its current form was first formally attested in 367. And The New Testament we read now,is actually being authorised by the Church in Synod of Carhtage in 397, which is after 72 years after Constantine died. Nevertheless, church leaders applied important standards when compiling the Bible. Authors of accepted writings needed to have walked and talked with Jesus, or at least with his leading disciples. Their teaching could not contradict what other apostles had written, and their documents must have been accepted by the entire church, from Jerusalem to Rome. Church leaders considered earlier letters and reports more credible than later documents. Finally, they prayed and trusted the Holy Spirit to guide their decisions.
The so-called Gnostic gospels, many discovered just last century, did not meet these criteria. Many appeared much later than the Bible and were dubiously attributed to major Christian leaders. Their teachings contrasted with what apostles like Paul had written. For example, many Gnostic writings argued that Jesus did not appear in the flesh, because flesh is evil, or they rejected the Old Testament.
(for more info pls go check on http://www.christianitytoday.com/biblestudies/areas/biblestudies/articles/060426b.html)

U noe wat? i reli think tat it s a big joke to all the readers when we noe the "truth" bout the 'da vinci code'. it acc mislead many christians.i dono wat s Brown's purpose to write this book, fame? money? but "We did not follow cleverly invented stories when we told you about the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but we were eyewitnesses of his majesty. (2 Pet 1:16)"

i am lucky gal~

i counted myself to b a very lucky gal..
y??
i ve been very active in posting my bloggie recently,
n i found one interesting news~
EVERY1 s been influenced by mr EDWIN TSIEN's boom xia dao..
acc i noe dis s his kou tou chan since dono how long b4,
but now d disease ar,spread rapidly among
--- jasmine yoyo,weisern kia,n eejie..n wingee (she used it for quite a long time liao)
n i oso lucky tat i wasnt influenced by wingee's
--- " I CANT IMAGINE"
hahhahah~ tak tahan her saying tat la..
tak tahan wif ed n wingee's BOOM XIA DAO~
n ed has bcom the owner of d copyright of this word
"BOOM XIA DAO"..
(ed,c,i authorised u liao le~)
dono dis trend/disease ll until when le~
every1 s booming to each other~

EDWIN TSIEN:-- u stil owe me somthing..u got anything to tel me? wen's ur sis wedding?
PENG YOU ZUO DAO JIN TIAN LA.. (even ur HELP-psycologystudent-giordana-lynn oso noe bout it~ peng you zuo dao jin tian la~)

i wana enter utp le~

quite many ppl ask me bout how s d interview? wen ll i go to utp?
well~~~
I DIN EVEN HAV CONFIDNET TO GET IT~
sadsad d la..
i ve explain many times to many frens liao
i RELI DON THINK I CAN ENTER LA~!
sad d la~ my drem to b P.E.(petroleum engineer)
sad d la~
sad d la~
wel,stil hav to wait for d outcome first
anyway i ve paid for mmu~
n i m ready to go mmu..
but wat shud i do in d next month le?
i don wan to qiao ka at home le~
GO WORK LA DUH~
but wer??
donola

bac frm edu camp~

well,i reli hav to post liao dis time,
cos u cant imagine how excited i was wen i baru reach der~
here's som of d pic taken in utp~

dis s d chancellor hall,damn big,i tel u,der s 6 storeys library inside,resource centre~ the inside view of chansellor hall.. very big la,n for ur info,we (the students of edu camp) are not allowed to enter the-very-big-n-high-tech academic buildings (i think der r 23/24 buildings der) damn nice lor i tel u~

n den hor,dis s d mosque in utp,damn big n pretty lo~ hahah

dis s d new building of hostel,very clean,very colourful..

so far i onli took dis few buidings of pic onli..

wel,now m goin to tel u how s d life in d camp~

1st day--wel,we spend more time on ice-breaking activities,but it oso prepared the students for the coming interview (on 3rd day)..but my speaker s very lo so,so we bac to hostel bout 11pm~sial la..n den hor,der r 12000++ ppl applied for dis edu cam,2500++ got into dis edu camp,n den dey onli choose 500 students to enter d UTP~ hahha..damn farni~ im so damn lucky man~!

2nd day,we hav English Test in d morning,den we hav career talk..of cos i ll choose petroleum engineering lo~der s a interesting fact--in middle east countries,the average salaray of petroleum engineer is 100,000 USD~ dat s alot k..another interesting fact is--most of d engineers are gals..n another interesting fact is--the engineers don spend lots of time on off shore works,mostly in office one..hahah..n den aft tat is IQ test lo..okla,i admit my iq is not tat high,quite low oso..but hor...40 que to b finished in 20 min..i tel u,i reli cant finished lo,las few que tikam onli~

3rd day,interview..i was damn LUCKY to got the group D..it s supposed to hav 5 groups,group E shud b d las group..n i tot i was lucky tat i wasnt in d las group..but u noe wat? aft tat onli i noe tat der s NO GROUP E in dis batch..so i tot--wow,las group..cham~..n den i found tat i wasnt tat LUCKY lo..i was in d las group D,las person in individual interview,n d LAS group interview..d panel was like so tired to hear our discussion..if i reli get into UTP,congrats me..it s beyond my expectation~

to lynn:-- take care in HELP KL..hahha,hope u ll find ur mr."director's son" wen u r bac frm jogging..hahha..

to ed :--update more bout ur tammy-kiasu-lousymathteacher-NYP life der le~ u noe i wen to ipoh n ade bac here mah? dono le~ wat kind of fren? peng you zuo dao jin tian liao la~

to ada:-- few more days u ll hav to fly bac to perth liao..m not reminding u but..i am~ hahahha..enjoy ur life here~spend more time wif ur darling justin la~hahhah

to wg:--take good care of ur self ar,sore throat til now haven recover..take care a~don end up in hospital like kevin hor~hahhah

yea sleppy liao~chaoz

2nd attempt~

i swear i tried to update my blog several times,
but stupid com lo~
owas liddat to me~ heerrmph~

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wel,first day being so damn free at home,
watch "a date wif a vampire 2"
(chinese = wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui 2)
frm episode 7 to 20~
lihai le,impressed le~hahha
quite proud~
but aft non stop watchin tv,
at d moment i turn off tv,
i felt so ........................
SHIT~
cos m reli bored~
dono do wat le~
n i begin to admire shihui liao
tat gal can stay at home
PLAYIN GAMES n do nothin else le
for 3 whole months
me 1 day oso cannt tahan
den i called wg~tellin her how bored i m~
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wel,i think tomolo i ll go danga bay find job
dats a gd place le,got sea to watch,
memories~~~
i owas complain tat workin s too tiring,
but ~............................
no workin = sien~

X X X X X

my las day workin in padini is fun
mayb onli i ll think so,
n aft 6pm (my OUT time)
den i started to bid farewell to every1
n kok s leavin too~ sobsobs
n aft tat wen makan cake wif jason
n ivy bot me starbucks~hahha~

X X X X X

C~!
tat s my life now,
missing the passed days~
n oya~! i found tat i ve a new kou tou chan of me
tat s------------
sigh~
jason said i owas sighin on d phone,
though m not tat sad/unhappy/upset.
is tat gd or bad>?

X X X X X

lao2 cal jus now,
we were chattin bout his life in jc
he sounds so singaporean liao
wat CCA la~
(we used to call it --koko)
mayb m too wat liao la,
but his chinese improved~!
at least his pronouciation c more zhun
like a singaporean la
sobsobs
every1 s leavin soon
missin skul life liao lO~
(wat? not again gua~.......)

don wan to lose to ed~!

hahah,how can lose to edwin tsien~!
his "dead" bloggie finally revived,
den i swear to myself,
i mus revived my bloggie too~
i reli forgot wen s d las time i update my blog,
but--it s pretty too long isnt>?
fine~i mus update my bloggie too~
thanks ar ed~haha
d day since i start working,
den i noe der s nothin for me
to write in my bloggie~
it s TOOOO boring~
wel,but~ i ll try to squeeze som out~
since d day d result is out,
i v been so damn nervous
whether i can enter PETRONAS anot,
any1 who noe me,
ll noe how i LOVE & INSIST
to study Petroleum eng..,
don ask me y i love it so much~
i oso dono~ i jus cant help myself
i don even noe it s not belong to
chem engineerin.,sigh~
n so i go on9 at 2++AM,
to apply petronas~sigh~
pray for me tat i can enter~
if not,i think ll b goin to MMU,
noein tat som of my frens
oso der~
2nd,i M CONFUSED~
if der s a guy/gal,
who u quite fancy him/her,
n he/her s very nice to u,
ask u to giv him/her a chance
to be together,
while u re goin far away to study,
n u don reli prepare for it
(s in gettin into a realtionship),
n u don wish to regret in d future time,
ll u accept him/her>?
frens out der, giv opinion
in my taggie pls~
jus treat it s a poll,
i ll appreciate ur ans~thx

emptiness~

dono how many times i hav dis feelin~felt so empty,like nothin can satisfy me..to be more spesific,it s like u haven done any thing in ur life..or mayb jes like wen u wake up earli in the morning,n u find out tat u don hav to do anything,no nid to do oso,not even doin chores~tat s how i fel..it s not tat i no nid to do chores la,i stil hav THINGS to do,but it s jes tat..the FEELING~
was lyin on my couch,watching "just like heaven',n aft tat d feelin came,dono wat to do liao~ dis s been hauntin me few weeks ade~ since i ve sick of workin,i fel tat everytime m not doin anything~
nah,stop sayin bout dis~~!~!
yea,wen for movie today,"fearless"..it s reli good,luckily i wen to watch it in cinema,jet li's last film~sigh~~..den wen to find wg,she s been tellin me bout her n ch~sigh,den i think der s nothin tat can help her,al i can do s jes listen..dono since when,i hv lost my "talent" in giving advices(mayb i shud not put it in tat way,or mayb i din even good in giving advices,esp in these kind of things,but well..),i dono wat to do to help her,noe she s upset bout tat,but i reli~..sigh
den aft tat i wen to play vb..xueli,tony,kev,joel,yan,jason,n few fellows tat i don reli noe them,it s quite boring in a way, n it s quite fun..it wasnt s fun s las time i can sure~..i reli enjoy playin vb~
fel so lonely some times,n i can fel it frm his eyes oso,i dono y,but i fel like m lost..m not sure tat s dis d life tat i reli want? i used to spend much time in church,tryin to figure out wat's life? n wat m i here for? but u noe,it s "knowledge" in my brain,but i jes can reli understand it~..or mayb der s nothing i can do YET,tat s y~..
n tat's y i ll spend my time bloggin here,wish to get som attention out der,but i don hope tat every1 ll read dis..mayb m jes lonely,aft losin contact wif so many frens (skul frens,church frens,gd frens),n i reli started to fel tat mayb i dono dem tat well,we were jes studied in same skul,spend 5 years together in a borin skul,dat s y we call each other "friend"..hahah,y m i sayin dis?i oso dono le~~~~..

还是用华文吧~

难得想用华文来blog,其实还蛮难的也，ada不要怪我哦，如果真地看不懂，那就加油吧~
明天就是27号了，sebas也应该回来了吧。好想念他哦，太久没见面，有很多很多的东西想要告诉他，也不知道他在那里的生活怎样~好多朋友都读书了，总觉得我们（工作者）和那些已经去读书的有一段距离了，工作的工作，也很少来往了吧，我也蛮想念和ada聊天呢~。。也很久没有和芝三八了~~~。。。
明天就是27号了。延在vincci的最后一天，想想以后的日子，不知要怎样呢~ 面对那个女人，我真的很乏力。还好祥驯兽般的训练他，最近有进步哦~只是有时受不了他那种小姐样~说好要和延放工一起走走，真希望我和他今天的僵局会打破吧~（我还蛮期待的~！）我还真的不知道他在想什么咧，有时候很喜欢和他讲话，但有时候他又静（严肃吧~）到我不敢接近，很期待他的每一个笑容，却觉得~~也没什么酱咯~今天在vincci的气氛怪怪的，静静的，kwan & auntie都没什么说话，我更加不用说拉~希望以后可以跟他们相处融洽，我不想一直当外人~
难得pastor boon会来cs，看到他，我好高兴哦~知道自己不再是一个人了，也能更刚强吧~！想到以后去读书的日子，好茫然哦~加油吧~我也只能自己鼓励自己吧~

as usual~

aiyo,i swear tat i ll change to a better n nicer skin..although dis is the skin of the day in blogskin.com,but hor.. i don reli like it..wel,cos las skin got some error,terpaksa use another skin first..gona check n repair lo~
well,work mornin shift today..as usual,take shoes n serve customer..din hav any fresh news to say..thx to jason,i was wakened up at midnight..he s quite a farni guy..sigh..n as usual,i n yan not same shift..dono y we owas cant get same shift,n so cant go makan together..u noe,he s reli cute,as in,ermm..how to say,i ll fel happy wen i see him..n he s reli farni lo~hhaha..say wei tied up her hair,n tat makes me think of the "say wei" i used to see in SSI,wah,for one month i ve been workin in padini,n i started to miss skul life liao~..
start missin all the frens,every1 depart for their dreams..wat m i doin here? m i wastin my time?hahhaha..
nothin much to say..honestly,i reli dono wat else to say..jes feel free to blog..n hor,i was thinking,mayb i ll blog in chinese one day~ eng s too far frm me..hahha..k la,chaoz~

back from trip..

well,i think it s the las chance for us,we wen pd,melacca,kl,and genting..n we reli hav lots n lots of fun der,i won b able to forget the time we al laugh so loud in starbucks genting (deb was the loudest k? haha),we play heart attack n bx was the slowest,n kenneth s badluck-er,play beach vb and vivian bcam darker in a very short time,walkin along the beach from 830pm til 2++am~!,hearing jokes n iq question from siau huan (although it s very "COLD" la..haha), chatting under the round n bright moon, dance and sing at the beach, help the handsome guy picked bball (n he smiled to me and said thx!haha),wen for supper aat jalan alor (ikan bakar,chao kuey tiao,hao jian..),kena laugh by deb and ed so badly( so sia swei seh..),wen shoppin and bot many things in sg wang,times square and one u,heard the laughing (ken bot short jackets in petaling street) 2 rooms away from my room (can u imagine how they laugh????~~),ed got lost in genting,joggin and walking in genting,sit cable car together,play space shot n we nearly scared out hearts out,q damn long for the sg rejang thing n in the end we cant play,waitin in the damn cold weather for weedher to come but in d end he said he cant come,sitting along the coridor in genting but kena halau,wen to buy mineral water with my dear dear say wei,hav a great sister,lyn and u noe-she s a great gal~!,watchin bx play "ghost haunter" in genting(he very lihai le~~~),the time we play in water world in afamosa with xueli and the rest,cried in the bus til so teruk wen i hug wg and shi hui..to the frens who are reading this,i ll rmb u owas~..

aiyo,forgot wen s d las update..

thx to streamyx for delayin my case,now onli can online..but thx to my com again,dono y sot sot cant scan wireless connection..so now usin my bro's com to online..yea,spm over ade,it sux n i don reli wan to tok bout it,..ll announce the result whether it s gd o bad la..~..but hor,honestly i satisfied lo,even if i got lousy result i oso man yi,cos i ve done my bes,no pressure for me..
m goin trip tomolo,aiya,so ll hav a long time nv update liao..i used to change the skin twice a week..now cant liao la..very hard to get online.. so soli yea..
wen to watch king kong today.. fel so pai seh with him,n tat s not me at all..so soli yea..i noe u won b readin dis tat s y m sayin dis.. n hor,king kong s supre long lor,3 hours seh..n d king kong nv die one,even d dinasourS bite him dono how many times it stil won die..but kena shot jiu injured liao..sigh..so lousy seh,..but the "ann" s reli pretty,go for blonde~~!!hahaha..
k la,i beta slep now b4 i bcom panda tomolo..so wish me luck for the trip..i hop[e everything ll b fine..sob sob..kk chaoz..

my worse days~

wel,first,i jes don wan it happen..i reli don wan to b like dis de~but hor,i reli dono wat s wrong wif me~sigh..first,i slep at 1am,den aft tat is 3am..den getting biasa n biasa,i started slep at 4-5am..den now..i think my time tottally change liao..i slep at 7am..n i even say hi to my bro who s goin to skul in d mornin..wel,i don wan tat d..but my day time = slepin time,but night time i was reli semangat..n normally tat time i ll go study a bit,den go read books abit..but hor,mayb u ll amazed tat i use so much time on study,sure study alot,u are wrong lor..cos mayb bcos com s jes bsid me,n hor,nite time mah~think alot one..so my progress damn slow..normally one day i can finish half subject (wel,i admit las time i can study very fas d.i min las time la.)but hor,for sejarah,i study 2 babs den it s enuf 4 me liao,i was stucked liao.~..sigh,.n hor,i slep late,so normally i ll wake uo at 1-2pm..so i cant c morning sunshine now liao~..sigh>~

i ll hav my bc on thurs,one more day to go..n i decide not to slep today,so mayb tomolo i ll slep earli,den i ll not slep durin exam la..hahah..use my time wisely,study~~study for my petroleum enineerin,for my good result,for me..i jes don wan to regret wen i got tat result.~..jia you add oil to any1 whos takin spm~~kampateh o~

8 requirements to be my bf??

wel,i suddenly rmb xiaoxuan--vp ask me to join aGAME??which doesnt look like a game oso..but..erm,wel,i nv think of it b4..kla,let s start..8 requirements of my bf..let me see...
1.mus noe how to make me laugh lor~~,i prefer cheerful bf..
2.communication btwin each other s very impostant,so he mus b honest to me,n my good good fren..
3.noe how to sayang me wen i nid him the most..(wat's tat??)
4.must hav firm shoulder to let me lean on..
5.i prefer men wif dimples la..look cute?(is tat requirement??no la..).
6.vb player ba..(can play wif me wen my hands itchy mah..),erm,sportsman lo..
7.mus b very understandin lor~~,cos m not understandin enuf lo..
8.wah,finally las liao..outgoin ppl,i don like ppl who owas cope himself at home..mus noe how to PLAY..gahhahah..
kk tat s all..findin one..aft my spm la..hahhah..kk chaoz..

home alone~~..

hahah,dono how many times i open dis website liao,cos i dono wat to write,but fel like bloggin oso..hahah,aiya,my fingers itchy liao mah,my com here tempted me to go open it,n play~~..but miss wai,u nid to study hor~~..
wel,nex week i ll hav my spm exam,1st subject,bc...honestly m not afraid of bc,not bcos im ade gd in it,but i noe i won get A ba,but mayb i can get A2,it s quite imposible to get A1 in johor..well..so i think bc ll b d last subject i start study lor~~..
my family wen to kl liao,shoppin i guess,my sis sure buy alot one,i min my younger sis..she got influenced by me n kexin(my elder sis),like to shoppin..n every time she wen out sure buy clothes one..like s if she scared the clothes ll out of stock like tat..hahha..so m alone,in dis empty house lo..1st time i found tat i hav talent in cookin..so far,i haven eat any awful food cooked by me..hahah.so proud..haha..but i think i beta order pizza,don wan to get stomachache lo~~..
fel so sien man,don fel lyk studyin le>..dono wer to start..alot alot nid to memorise..but if i start memorise bio,later sure forget d..if i start sejarah,nex nex week onli start exam le,shud i start nex week??der s alot mayb n mayb..try very hard to find chances(excuses i shud say..) to pospone my study time..but i tel u,in the end,i sure cant fin studyin one..so sad..but so far,i din even fin one subject..sad hor??sigh..tat s me..aimlessly in studyin but eagerly to get gd result..erm,i think i shud stop crappin here,instead of crappin here,i think i shud action---study~~~!@!.. u noe,learn frm wee jin,LOVE wat u studyin den u won fel bored>>.>..>..>.(wow,it s tat me??nope..)..kk chaoz.tk bye

las days..

although today s ONLY fri,which we al left no much time together wif frens,5 yeas of frens,nwe all reli don bear to leave any1..so we al hav lots of fun,n so sad oso..saw joanna n wg cried,made me fel so touched+sad oso..n i hav the honour to take foto wif bryan n aruna..wah..aruna s goin to UK le..i think i ll mis him ba,he s the most gentleman in ssi..i think la..bryan was so paiseh wen takin foto wif me,aiya,made him so embarassed..kesian ni..
den aft tat i go meet "jolin" yeeling at cs..reli hav a very long time nv go c her ade..she s stil the very gd fren to me,n we ve tok alot n alot..n i owas fel comfortable tokin to her..n i met kaichuan oso,n peilu..hahha..so happy to meet my frens..kaichuan n i go bac perling together.n we chat on the way home..he's quite gd person to tok wif..hahah..now onli i noe,i ve been a suaku for halfyear liao since i move to perling,wah,he said so many places got nice food to eat..n i din wen even one of them..hahah..k la,nex time ask him out to makan..
my family s goin to cameron nex week,3 days le,.but without me..so i ll be left alone at home,3 days le~~~...nvm,ask pris n ed to my house.."study together" mah..but i thinkdey cant come la,every1 stay at home study..~~.. :(
n now dey al wen to makan supper liao..left me again..sigh,nvm,i go study my bio lo~~..kk take care!!bye bye
k la,gtg ade..

las days in skul..sob sob..

wah,e very las week go to skul..mayb dis cud b d very las week i wear uniform to skul(wel,spm doesnt count lar..~~)..yuan ben i reli don fel like goin to skul d..tired+bored to death..but hor,my las days in skullor..mus go c frens,mayb won able to c aft graduate..but i was tooo tired liao..so i nearly slep in clas,though no teahcer..n den wen dey al laughin laughin i can onli sit der n listen to themm...sad seh..
den aft tat wen to cs,go starbux wif bao li..bot mocha..wahhh..nice le~~ i like starbux's mocha..it s d bes..hahha..long time nv tok to her liao..so i hav many stories to tel her..hahah..38 lar~~
den send email to ada lo,type in a very very sleepy state..hahha..nid to go study liao..nites nites

nv provoke gals..

hahah,ya,rujuk to my title..don u even dare to provok gal..hmm..don blilf??go ask jeremy lar..who ask him to provok me,den in d end ask for forgivness som more..hahah..tat guy ar,think tat i reli tat gd to bully,owas suan me,laugh at me,i oso din revenge,now gd lor,make him suffer fer the pass 2 hours in yip's tui..beligood ar u!!hahhaa...n hor~~m not in gd mood hor,u knew,n u dare to do tat to me~~,..kakaka,u deserve it~~hhahah..
n hor..i found out one thing le~~!i fel like xuanhao s so alike to som1,but i stil cant figure it out..but now,i noe liao..he n jiancao very alike le!~not their face look same lar~,but i found tat dey hav common characteristic,very serious wen doin somthing,tok very farni somtimes but nv smile one,very cool n somtimes reli sabai one,very responsible...now i yue4 xiang3 yue xiang4..reli lor..n i hav the chance to sit jiancao's car,s he promise,n "send" me home (acc it s few meters away to my house lar..)..but den sure very excited,although his drivin skil memang -.- //..hahha..
k la,i wana play maple liao..den onli i go fin my kimia..kakka,,take care!!

hmmm..

so many things happen to me,n i reli dono wat to do..so i started to run away,awy to the reality..she s rite,i cant hide forever,at least i must think a way out,n shud not stay in depression any more..things owas won go as i expected..so i might fel depressed,defeated by destiny,but i noe m not alone..at least i still hav my god,n frens who are owas encourage me..i reli dono what shud i do now..thx for those frens who owas sms me n encourage me..i reli appreciated,but i hope i ll win this battle,n in the end,im not the one who i am now..a brand new life..

"No, that trauma you faced was not easy,

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart,

So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod,

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!"

Quoted frm Russell Kelfer

yea,i blif in tat..so jes let Him do wateva He wana do..i won show my sadness in front of anyone,i noe im the onli one in the battle..so i must be brave,full of wisdom to face the storm..and i blif the hands of the Almighty will owas b there for me..thanks..

like this song very mucchh.

yea,like this song,though it s quite sad lar..but i reli can understand e feelinn..nicee..

So here we are We are alone

There's weight on your mind

I wanna know

The truth If this is how you feel

Say it to me If this was ever real

[Chorus:]I want the truth From you

Give me the truth

Even if it hurts me

I want the truth from you

Give me the truth

Even if it hurts me

I want the truth

So this is you You talking to me

You found a million ways to let me down

So I'm not hurt when you're not around

I was blind

But now I see This is how you feel

Say it to me If this was ever real

I know that this will break me

I know that this might make me cry

You gotta say what's on your mind, on your mind

I know that this will hurt me

And break my heart and soul inside

But I don't wanna live this life

I don't care no more, no Just give me the truth

Give me the truth Cuz I don't care no more

din go to skul,AGAIN..

i was bout to go to skul de,den received a msg frm wingee tellin me she s not goin,den i cal shi hui..aft discuss wif her,we 2 oso don wan to go to skul liao..so boring seh..n i acc forgot tat i promis peixin to go jail wif her today!! so soli!!i reli forgot!!..

n den hor,yalo,dono wat m doin at home..wake up at recess time,n play maple,listen soongs.yaya,i noe i ve said i ll stop playin maple d..but hor..reli don fel like studyin yet..i reli haven touched e books yet,..all i can s--die lor..aiseh..den slep awhile,wake up,go down read som books,n comics..sienzzz...i was wonderin,if i wen to skul today,ll it be e same??!!i ll nv noe e ans..sigh..

received ada's mail today,tellin me she reached oz ade..n she mis us very much..2 years ade,she studied in oz,n yet she stil don like der..hmm..mayb tat skul reli tat irritatin gua..i wish i ll leave dis skul s soon s possible,but no sayin bye bye to all my frens,no spm..i jes don like tat SSI..som times make me fel tat it s reli getting wuliao ade..but som times i like der bcos al my frens were der..hhehe..

kla,gtg ade.study study n study..tat s a NORMAL spm student ll do..so ed ar,don keep playin maple ar,lvl 30 onli stop??!!haha,c 1st lar~~who noes u ll RELI stop it anot?/hahah..take care..

din wen to skul..

yaya,i din go to skul today..i woke up,n fel very tired,den i sms my bus uncle,ask him not o fetch me,den sms shi hui ask her help me take notes..hmm..wel,som times i reli dono y MUS i go to skul..but fel very bad la~cos i din go to skul..hmm..n another reason s bcos i dreamt a very very good dream..so i don wan2 wake up,.jes hope tat i won awake n stay in e dream..hahah..but e reality s owas reality lar..one pengajaran,tat was jes a DREAM..so face e reality ba!!/hahha/so wen ada sms me to tel me shes goin bac to oz,i was stil in my bed..n i din noe wat's e content of the sms wen i was reading it..haha../reili hope later i ll study bit lar..spm s comin!spm s comin!but i fel so lazy to study le~~ play play play..sad seh..

another thing..dono shud i celebrate o wat la..i got B fer my bk..tat s gd lar~~n bad oso..i shud hav get A fer my BK..but..lazy me..din finish studyin luke lar..beligood..hahha..good thing s--wen i fin my bk paper,i tot i ll fail..but i got a B..nvm,kambateh,nex time mus b well prepared lo..n hor n hor..hahha..i win kevin,by ONE mark..tat s shiok mah~~hahha..1 mark i lagi shiok a..den i sms to LAUGH him..i tot his bk s OWAS beat me one..but..hahhahha//

kla kla..don crap here liao..NO MORE MAPLIN !! mus control myself liao.one day mus uninstall it..like eejie,although she install it bac..hahahhhaha..mus STOP!!..hahah..take care..chaoz.

hahah..

yea yea,long time nv blog..alots of stories to write..hmm..which first?okok,let s tok bout ada's comin bac to jb..u noe wat?a miracle happen!!her aunt let her to com to my house,although onli fer 3 hours,but finally she came!!..ed came oso,but he bz playin maple in my house,n listen to us chattin..kaka..n den hor,my mum was sick mah,so she cant fetch her bac,but she gav me money to treat ada a dinner,go to YEW's cafe man!!wow,tat cafe reli nice..n tat s my 1st time eatin der since i move to perling..n my mum NEVER buy me dinner in a such nice place..so,no one can deny tat my mum loves ada so much>>den we wen kerry's lo,den fetc her bac home,den onli ed n i go bac..happy tat she s here wif us..n so lucky d jeremy,ada bac here from aust to celebrate his bday man..

yayya..wana wish jeremy happy bday!!although it s on 8th oct..yuan ben we wanted to go a cafe near PO to makan d,his bday mah..treat him lunch lor..but ky cal,n den in e end i hav to OWE him a lunch seh..tat day so unlucky man,..rainin+omega no electric..hmm..i NV said jeremy dai sai arrr..i NEVER SAID TAT..hahahhah

k la,gtg,9.30pm ade..wana do som hw b4 sleep..don wan to b so pathetic again...hahhaha...chaoz..

holiday~~

yaya,today s holiday again..acc holiday n skul day no diff one..in e skul play like hell,din listen to teacher oso,den go kaikai aft skul..holiday oso play like hell..aiya,m i reli goin to sit fer SPM??well,i don look like m ready..n im not oso..so i mux tel myself tat : study la,lazybone!!"..

sigh,tomolo so sien,if tomolo got bio wif sawa,i tel u,i sure ponteng one..hate tat stupid teacher,blac blac heart she has..n m goin to JAIL,wif peixin,don ask me wat crime i ve done,but..hahahah..not farni lar~~..tomolo tuition sommore..lagi sien,all teacher start giv us revision..wah,so much hw to do man~~..

i ve promise myself tat i MUST write bout tat day..i tricked ada..kaka..tat day,wg came my house,so i let her chat wif adda through msn,den i cal her,n tel her m not online,din sign in,wg not in my house,but mayb sombody else s USIN my account..at 1st,she don blif,i--the super actress wif oscar award,made her blif..wen i reveal e truth..wat e ..i think der s no other foul language she can use liao..cos she use them all,n keep screamin..hahahaahaha..so damn farni..it s a very big suprise wg n i gav her..SUPRISE!!hahha..

k gtg ade,wana do som revision man..hahha..tata

Sunday..

ya,today s another sunday to me..sunday..sunday..i kena alot today,but i stil fel happy to c e children runnin around..dey r reli cute man!!..

yeah,tomolo goin to wg's house,den we go swimmin..ask her to spend overnight at my house..hehe..so can chat alot..n we reli hav long time nv chat long long wif her liao..u noe,som times she can b quite 38 de lor~~..

n y m i stil stayin up so late?haha..thanks to the tv..(seems like i ve been "thankin" a lot of thingy-maple,tv..anything can caused me trouble..)hahah..reli happy to let her com my house//

n hor~~e spm s reli gettin near..but yet i stil sittin here postin bloggie..haiya,postin bloggie nothin wrong wif tat..jes tat..how long i ve been sittin here??~~!! =.= //haha..okok,i ll start tomolo la..but i reli hope i can fin pn tan's revision 1st..owe her..i ll stop playin maple la..n hor~ reli hope can get in group A,cos zaleha ll teachin us bm,pn ling-mm,kimia-noreha/faridah,fz-adnan (but NOT HALIMAH,yeah!!)..but my result,sux..so i can onli pray lo..

k la,10.30pm ade..gtg go clean my table.so luan man..~~..chaoz.

wah..my beloved blog..

hehe..long time nv blog ade..thanks to e maple story game..farni hor,..e trials nv stop me bloggin,but e online game did..hmm..tat mins tat i was more addicted to e game la..~~..acc tat game s quite childish..jes tat alot ppl playin..so all e frens can play together..n wen i was a beginner,dey al help me alot..n tat makes me more shu2 wif em..hahaha..
well,dis few days i was fine..my exam jes pass---..n tat make me lagi no mood to study..although SPM s DAMN near man..thx to maple game again~~..n,my maid s goin bac home,so i gona learn cookin b4 my mum ask me to b her guinea pig..(cant blif tat she din cook fer 10 years man..!!)..e skul s ok..super duper good -- al e teachers not teachin..like s if we hv graduate wif super flyin colours..
well,i was chattin wif kim jes now..hmm..she s convent gal fer ur info..i was known as "anti-convent" las time..cos i think i reli haav bias to em..but,honestly speakin,not all convent gals are irritated..noe some of em are very good n frenly...
kk gtg..MAPLE MAPLE lor~~..take care chaoz/

yozz..yea yea,,.so free to change e skin AGAIN!!..haha..enjoyin doin tat..hope can change eery week gua..haha
s usuall..e fz s .....although i got e tips,but i din reli take a lok,so...e paper 2 part2,u noe wat>?i done 2 question./which we r oni suppose to do one ONLY..but..i reli don think my ans can get marks,so at e very las min i go do another one..hope my fz won fail la..
i m suppose to b in tuition class now..don ask me y m stil here..reli don hav moods to go la..som more e kimia class al cancel,no one pei me stay bac,ah mi wen kingsurf,ben din go..so i rather go tomolo's one..o mayb i ll jes skip e clas la..sighs..
k tired ade..wana slep,baru study my sej,,kaka..k chaoz..

damn tired..

wen fer church meetin dis aftnon,so i din hav enuf time to prepare my fz..die ade.sobsob,.but i nv regret..i think i stil hav time tomolo..

long time nv play vb,jes view a player's bloggie.tat makes me think of the time i play vb wif em..mis playin vb wif yening,jiayie,cheaushuang,mei qiang..o ya hor..long time nv c him liao,dono how s he nw?cud b very bz over e competiton ba..think shud go find him aft my exam..but hav to play vb first la..

damn tired..din hav mood to study fz le..keelektromagnetan left a bit onli..elektronit i don understand at all..gelombang s boring..the pengenalan to fz lagi worse..do i hav enuf time to fin tomolo mornin/?cos i think if i carry on,i ll jes read through onli..nv masuk brain le..

e mm s ez..thank god..finally got subjext tat i might get A..e rest..go die la.sigh..

tired lo..yea,go check out wif my msn space..dono wat e hell s tat..but i ade contented wif my blogspot..so tat one s extra one la..din wrote anything..let it be la..

k chaozz

rainin outside..

yoz..yea,it s rainin out side..ppl said rainin mus b heaven's cryin..wel,som times i blif tat

wingee's bday today..well,we CELEBRATED her bday in HUTAN BANDAR>>acc we al noe tat every1 s bz over e exam,n som of em cant go lunch together..so we were sayin tat let's do it aft e exam..so l b more ppl can com,n not so stressed of cos..n we take lunch in hutan bandar,sit seperately,n it s jus seems like a lunch but not a celebration..wel,we cant do anything bout it..s we all are agree that we ll go out aft exam fer her bday..but../.....

so HAPPY BDAY TO U! wingee!! soli tat we cant celebrate on ur bday,but i think e mos important thing s tat al our frens r here to wish u happy burfday..

las but not least..the bi s sucks..i nv hav e mood to write a gd esei..guess which esei i wrote?? is it good to b rich>? of cos i agree!!money won drive a man to greed,but ur mind ll..tat s wat i blif..hahha..anyway,i hope adila s kind enuf to gimme A..

kk take care..n thx fer viewin,dennis!!mis u lots!!haha..take care..chaoz..!!

life s priceless..

wel,im gona do fas,so i can go hav my lunch..

yea,s usual,every day's exam sucks!!.so no nid to hurai on tat any more..i dono how to do hundred of ques,half slept wen i was doin essei,wake up-write,den slep bac..don doubt me,it s true..

receiv a msg from fren,tellin me her 2 frens met accident,died..so dey ll nv com to skul anymore..tat s sad..read ada's blog jes now,another of her fren was sick,i dono how sick,but it s serious..so she was told tat fren of her s not doin well..so pray fer her.....

we r growin,o we can say we r getttin nearer to death,if u r lucky,u can jes leave e world wen u r old..if u unlucky,sickness,accidentss...so who s e one can noe ur future??who can control??i hope if e nex moment i die,i hope my passed life s ful of gd memory,n i tel my self,"u ve done well.."

so cheer up man..life stil goes one..hope my 2 frens rest in peace.

another sunday..

wel,m not sayin tat i hate sunday..but sunday cud b my most meaninful day in a week,seein e kids,takin care of e church kids,n worship in e church..i nv tot it ll waste me times..

but this sunday,made me do som thinkin..m i doin this (church-ing) in a very "routine" way?o m i reli goin jes to learn more n get closer wif god?hmmm..well..i reli hav to get dis rite,otherwise i ll be wastin my time doin som thing i don reli noe..

yea,s usual,i ve been very bz in church..nothin much happen acc..jes fel glad tat vanessa s tryin hard to get into the big family..well,mayb we dono her very well,but since las times had lunch wif her,i found tat we have som similiarities..so hav a nice chat wif her..

tomolo havin bm..not yet TOUCHED..but..ll do it alter..rite aft i fin dis blog..n i wana thx e person view n tag me here..but i dono who r u..so if u don mind,cantel me who u r? haha..

k,bm time now..chaoz..

yozz

jes droppin by..hmm..dono wat to say,..cos i was jes DROPPIN BY././n din even think wat to say oso..seems like i ll b e onli person on this earth readin this bloggie..exp ada la..i noe som times she ll read..wen she can open mine la..haha..but who cares..i wrote myself so it s wrote to my self..haha..

ll hav tuition later..stil hav 1.5hour to stay at here..but i was freakin lazy to go take bus..how i wish i hav drivin license n a CAR..hjmmm..dream on la..but i think i reli shud stop dreamin la..

yapp[,dono s it im too sensitive o wat..hmm,recently got ppl ask me:y m i stil single.? s in i ve been very playful,but y don i find a bf??noe who ask?? u ll nv noe..but tat made me do som thinkin n get few conclusions..1st:NO ONE wants me in the 1st place..2nd:fer time being,i don nid a relationship..(s in i need LOVE but not a relationship)..3rd:m tired of that..4th:well,no reason..jes like y r u not in rich house o a milionare..it s whether ur fate or u jes hav to wait fer the oppotunity to fight for it..tat's it..i prefer the last one..haha

sigh..dis shud b e last year we spend time together so y r we fightin over som tiny matter??if u noe dis,den u noe wat m tokin bout..m jes waitin "god's will" to let me decide whether to "help" o "interfere" this matter..jes hope tat everything ll be fine..haha..

k take care..chaoz.

i was SO CARELESS!!

yea,las exam day in this week..but fel so happi//e bziest week s over..nex imp subject is fz..
I WAS SO DAMN CARELESS MAN>>!! any one who took e exam ll noe bout tat..n there s a BIG difference btwin "RANGKA SATU EKSPERIMEN" and "RANGKA SATU EKSPERIMEN LAIN"!!!!!!!/(don laugh at me o,e ppl who do the jelaga thing ll get it wrong oso o..i think la..hehe)//wel,que is lik tat..we hav to rangka an experiment yang LAIN to bezakan sifat kimia among alkana n alkena..well..n i tot it was based on the experiment given..n i REWROTE it..i sweared to god tat i RE-READ it quite lots of times,but i dinc the word "LAGI"..so...e whole experiment i got it wrong..n..som more i din read e BACAAN of the termometer,i got it wrong at that part,the calculation part,the haba peneutralan part,n the que whic related to the haba AGAIN..opps,lagi one more..the penjadualn data part..so mayb i wll onli get 10 marks or less fer this paper..

so damn down today..i ve done so badly in the previous paper..n yet..well shi hui said i shud b grateful tat i din do wel in paper 1 n 2,otherwise i ll cry..it s like e paper 3 pull the marks..so it ll make u fel lagi worst../she s damn rite..

n wg's story s diff..she said compare to her las unlucky experience,i was so lucky..at least i got som marks there..she said las time she dono how to do e que,10 que..but she tot she can get it rite,mayb one o two..mayb tat may earn her som marks..but MIRACLELY,she got it allll wrong..if u noe how to calculate the possibility to get it all wrong in 10 que..take out calculator,press "0.75 power 10"..so e ans was 0.056313514..tat mins among 100 time u do the 10 que,u one able to get it ALL wrong fer 5 times..n tat s farni..fel tat im luckier than her..but thanx man!!i reli fel beta..hahah

tat s al i wana say.,.bac from tui n i realise tat i noe nothin bout optic!!n mayb the "tekanan" bab..well..gona catch up myself...

i promise to my self..NEVA EVA MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN!!

chaoz..

wat the...~~..kimia..s.u.c.k.s.

well,m not here to criticise the jabatan pendidikan here..it s not s hard s las time..but i stil dono how to do!! i admit i din "cover" all the babs,tat s y i say it s hard..quite detailed..som more i was freakin scared tat i cant fin in time..so i was lyk tremblin wen i was doin tat..

"Apakan bahan komposit?".."berikan bahan ujin dan keadaan yang diperlukan untuk menghasilkan etil butanoat daripada asid karboksilik?".."berikan 3 han pengawet asli dan huraikan"..well dis s jes AMONG the que i dono how to ans..wat the~~~///..
no one perfect..n i believe tat it s suitable fer me to take my SPM result fer the intake thingy..

SOB SOB SOB..

tomolo havin add math..well d day aft tat is sej..which i haven even touch yet..n it s paper 2..i dono how m i goin to do it man..n how m i goin to fin readin it in A DAY??!! tat s quite imposible..sorry,mr maryjane..i fail u..

dono wat to say..buyt recently al my blog s bout e exam..can write som thing new?? i don hav here..no gd thing happen to me..n exam reli made me fel depressed..

ada foo..i change my skin..i think u haven view my blog..tat s y u dono i ve change ade..thanks to vampire prince..tag me la..if u r free..reply me onli wen u free..hehe..i noe u la bz gal..al the best to u!!

kk take care..chaoz...

jes droppin by..

sigh..jes droppin by..books r bside e com..n e books r bside e com..so tempted me to post here..sigh..kimia a kimia..y so hard..stil hav lots n lots to memorise..

antidepresen-1.barbiturat,2.transkuilizer..alkena+penghidrogenan=alkana,alkohol+asid karbosilik=ester(asid karboksilat)...dalam larutan NaOH,mendakan putih yang terlarut dalam larutan jika berlebihan is Al,Zn,Pb, but in NH3,hanya zink yang terlarut dalam larutan berlebihan..

M I CRAZY??!! type al dis in my blog..k well.hav to go eat som thin den onli i continue..slep so much..(i tot i said i won slep today..but i did this afternon..)..so no nid to slepla..man man read my kimia..wana get an A fer my chemistry..wah..ada foo got 83 le..hehe..i wana get A oso..to prove tat im workin hard here oso..but it s ezier to say here.. get an A in kimia?? DREAM ON!!
k chaoz...STUDY!

yes!finally can c my blog!! al credits to "vampire prince" who did dis to me..thanks!! ^_^!!i like this skin so much tat s y i insisted to use dis..hehe..nice le..penguin..
hav my bio paper 1 & 3, sial man..so hard..it sucks la..n i nearly cant finish le..wabiang..n "thanks" to al the tips la..nv com out..made me go study so hard..so y is it cal tips? which ll nv accurate one?? do spread rumuors to scared me out la.>!!
n today i nearly say bad words n spoilt my mood to exam..my stupid fon lo..set e alarm but nv rang..wake up at 6.07am,n my bus uncle came at 6.10am..wat the~~..but thank god he s the nicest person on e earth..wait me at e gate fer 10 mins n gimme a smile wen i came out..thanks le!!!
so i ll hav my kimia tomolo..wat e..since i slep 11 hours yest//i think i ll b panda today..NO SLEEPIN..(like s if i can..)hahah..so reli wana bia fer dis subject..my fav among e 3 science subjects..n i reli like faridah..(my kimia teacher..)
so gd luck to al e studdents who havin exam now..al the best..
kk chaoz..take care..bye//

yea yea..new skin,.new me..

noe wat?i ll be havin my bio exam on mon..
n yet, i hav so much time to do my skin at dis critical time..
who cares?! who all knew tat rathi won giv us mark so ezly,
so even how well prepared i m,oso useless one...
so..i continue lo..
hehehe..ya, finally i can on9!! tat s a very gd news to me..as in i won be tat bored at home la..
n so tat i can chat wid ada when we bof on9!!yeah MAN!!
stil dono wer to go aft spm..it has to depend on my result first..2 more months le!!
i wish i can get in taylors,wif scholarship,cos im not tat rich la..
if can la..i noe it s quite impossible la..i wan get in mlc..in aust..m i dreamin>?/
(hey,ur trial s tomolo!!)
ooopppsss..k la,be pratical abit..i reli hav to get myself bac n force my self to study la..
so chiaoz la..tk

wah..super long time nv blog..

c,my dad las time don wan to let me online,now can online liao finally..n my bloggie shud said "welcome backkk!!", i reli hardly online n take care my cutie blog..sad sad..c las time i blog s june..wow..
so bad la..can die now..1st day exam - bc..it sucks man..m i made my choice right ta continue takin bc?? i love it..las time la..but now..thanks to the teacher man,i reli wat e X he tok bout..n i reli hav no feelin to e exam le..s u can c,i hav lots time to blog here..
welcom bac my bloggie..heheh..think i ll owas blog liao..esp aft spm lo..
n i swear to myself,change my blog skin..so sick of black..made me fel lagi worse..like s if my life is in darkness...but it s not!!...y did i chose that i oso dono..but i ll change la..mayb tonite.cant do it now cos my stomach s beggin me to eat some thng..dono y so hungry..hahh..mayb las time i chose this s bcos i wasnt tat happy la..now i rather put some bright color..com on,we shud c some bright things,can make u fel beta..
to al form 5 student,reli hope u al done well in spm, n trials la..though it s reli hard..hahah..k gtg..chaoz...
ps://lijie s goin bac to UK,ll mis him very much..heheh..